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NEW BLOG!

2006-12-14T17:23:00.000+08:00

OKAY PEOPLE! im not here to blog about my saddened life but here to announce something. LOL!

I HAVE MOVED! No not house. I'VE MOVED MY BLOG TO ELSEWHERE! Lol. Because i realised the URL i gave this blog is a little bit off the hook. so got another one ready. LoL..So please change your links to my other blog instead of this. PLEASE AND THANK YOU! Oh and tag it alright? cos i almost went blind looking at the templates. LoL. CHEERS PEOPLE!

Here's the blog URL ----> www.chupa-chups-woots.blogspot.com

Hate

2006-11-30T01:14:00.000+08:00

I hate it.
The feeling inside.
The weakness pulling me down.
The wall putting me from you.
The distance kept between us.
I'm mixed
In a solution full of emotion.
Sorrow, anger and pain.
How can i make you understand?
How may i let you know?
Maybe i should stop.
Maybe i should give up.
Maybe we should be drifted like the way it is.
No matter what i do,
You are still trapped inside the world of your own.
Refusing to understand
Choose to be nonchalent
Hope to be ignorant
Hurt you are, i may not know.
Why put me through dismay.
Dishearted and dismissed
I walked away.
Thinking how we used to be,
The time before you changed.
The time before you were hurt.
The time when you need someone,
I was there.
Now you're free.
Free to do anything.
Lost in my words
I got discarded.
Back in your circle you have
Throwing what you used to have behind.
Living a cheerful life
For i took the suffering.
Left-out and outcast
I walked away.

2006-11-28T15:48:00.000+08:00

I don't know how to start off but here i am blogging in class. Lecturer left with our test papers. The test that most of us cheated and the teacher does not give a dam about it. The guy beside me, L, is occasionally helpful. Sometimes i just wanna slap him in the face. He completed 5 parts of the tutorial that we are supposed to do and i merely asked him about one of the question in part 3, he simply said "This one i don't know". Alright how the hell did you finish off those parts in front then? I really don't like this feeling. Helpless and dependent. I want to be smart. I want to do well. I want to know what im doing instead of pleading others for help. The feeling of emptiness and rejection. The urge to be alone yet don't wanna be alone. I'm in a mixed feeling now. What am i suppose to feel? What am i feeling now? I hate everyone. I hate myself. Life is so cold. When my friends are having fun now, i'm being depressed over somethings i don't even know what is. I wanna tell you but you are just too nonchalent and you won't care. So what is the point? I really have no way out now. The cough you gave me is so very irritating. Yet you don't even care. Why should i be in here. Why should i be caring for people who doesn't care at all. WHY tell me. WHY. Please. i need someone to tell me the solution desperately. I really really hope for someone who can really understand me. Who can? No one can. My mind is just constantly thinking of things that even i can't handle it. Why am i always caring for people who doesn't deserve any and ignored those who cared so much? Am i insane? I felt like crying. Cry it all out. Shout out loud. Let myself go. Save me. Anyone.

In the world of lights,
Darkness sets into me.
Taking me down from the flight,
A great big fall.
Hurt and despair,
I shouted.
I cried.
In the long deserted corner,
Left to die.

Time

2006-11-28T01:22:00.000+08:00

AAAAALLLLLRIGHT! I get it already. I know i haven't been blogging very often for now and people are leaving my blog to another blog, letting mine to be as dead as ever. NOOOO. please don't leave! Actually, i kinda forgot about my user and password for my blog account but thankfully i got an easy to remember user and password. So yeah no worries! this blog will go on! provided that i have the time and i feel hardworking enough. :X

Okay back to blogging.

I've realised how much things are actually going on in my life now. Upset ones, happy moments and of course, the ones caught in the middle. It's really depressing on how people changes as time goes on and how the happy memories made you regret not really treasuring time more. Sometimes you would just wished that Time was a little slower for you to catch your breathe and enjoy life to the very end.

In primary school, we were naive and innocent and know no worries except playgrounds and fun. When graduated from Primary, we moved on to Secondary, hoping for a better life than in the previous years. With both acadamic and peer pressure, we moved on hastily and graduated in no time. While in Tertiary (T) level, we wished that time were slower. Giving Us, human, more Time to live our lives and cherish what were in the previous years. Those fond memories. Those fun times. Those times when we were still loony and messing around with your own cliques in the public.

Unlike in Primary and Secondary, it is way too difficult to bond in the Tertiary level. Cliques changes now and then. People direct their attention to new friends, forgetting how the "old" ones, who once had so much fun together. Feeling left-out is also one of the fact that One must get over with in T. If you can't be as loud or louder than the clique, you get left behind. Simple as that. If you are not a fun person to be with, you get outcast. No matter how hard We try, things will always be that way. Fixed and systematic. I guess that's life. No matter what we try to do to get One's trust and friendship, gradually, we'll lose them. No matter how much effort you put in, they just wouldn't care. Living by the days is just too common in T. Caring no longer exist. Only when you are needed, you are asked for.

I hope for Primary and Secondary. Life without worries nor stress. Life without emotion distress. Life so carefree and wild. Maybe i'm just not cut out to be an independent young man. I need friends. Yet they've hurt me far to many times. Not all, but the few whom i really cared for. It's surprising to find that sometimes people whom i thought wouldn't care cared. This makes who i care for meaningless and pointless. I'm sick. I'm tired. At times, being selfish is required. Being emotionless would be best. Being nonchalent will bring an end to controversy nor emotional breakdown. It's too difficult to live. Too hard to breathe. I miss the times. I miss the happiness. I miss them.

Camp

2006-10-16T23:41:00.000+08:00

WOOTS okay i just came back from camp 2 days ago and its VERY FUN! I mean before i enter the camp i kept thinking to myself that its not fun and it's gonna be tough, yet on contradictory stand, i told myself it is going to be fun and not like those normal camps i went before. This is Volleyball camp. Anything can happened, and i was provened that i was right afterall. LoLs.

I shan't go into the details of what happened in the 4 days camp. It is just purely training and fun. Training wise it is tougher than dragonboat's training camp. We had to wake up at 5 30 and prepare ourselves at 6am and go do training all the way till lunch. Then after lunch we will train some more and till dinner. After dinner we are allowed to slack and for the other team, they had to organise something for us because they lost in a "Super-heroes" competition.

The event they planned was held during mid night and it lasted for quite awhile. So the next day we only had 1 hour of sleep. That's the maximum. LoLs. Tough leh. The rest of the day i look like zombie. LoLs.

One more thing that i have to say. MY CONTACT LENSES! Shit lo. Everytime i wear them in camp, the left eye gets too dry to see clearly almost immediately. So i was totally irritated by the annoying "foggy" vision that i had at my left eye all this while. Felt like throwing it away but that's the last pair already. So i have to get new one soon. And fast. lols.

Oh by the way, i did bring back something with me after the camp, partly the experience and leadership, but mainly, SCANDALS! LOLOL! oh my god. why am i always the aim for scandals in volleyball? LOL. tell me whyyyY! lolols.

Okay enough of camp. I just wanna say, i tottaly hate that THING i call brother for the past 17 years. I mean sometimes he's really nice and occasionally when my friends, who knew that my brother is a total scumbag jackass, scolded him, i try to speak up for him although i was the one who told them he suck. Yet MOST of the time he is mean, hypocritical, noisy and so irritating. Like today. He came home late at night still in his school uniform. Upon letting his bag down onto the sofa, he came into our room and open his farking gap that he so happen to name it the mouth. If he asked me nicely to leave the computer then MAYBE i would just entertain him a little. Yet he commanded me to leave the PC YET AGAIN. I act as if he wasn't there and continued with my game ( NOTE: i was playing DOTA and i can't leave half-way). He went to bath and came back with a harsher tone. I just hate it. He sat behind me on his bed and repeatedly making himself clear that he want me to be gone from the computer, knowing clearly that when playing dota, we can't leave anyhow, not even when im playing with friends. He raised his voice a little higher this time asking me to leave the seat because i totally ignored his existance. Then he shouted and asked if i was deaf. i manage to shake my head in recognition of telling him "yeah yeah whatever, do i look deaf?" Then i felt like standing up and throw the freaking chair onto his face to make him fall on the ground and beg. I guess i'm not the violent type. I told the friends whom he and i knows in the game that i have to leave. While i was telling them that i had to leave, the sudden urge of telling them that that thing asked me to go off and he is being such a fucker.

I sometimes will just curse him in silence. Wanna know what are the curses i said? I hope he breaks up with his girlfriend ( i just cant stand how he manage to get so intimate ,like sleeping together on one single bed hugging each other, with every of his girlfriends. It's just like toying them). i think that one is enough for him to suffer. Oh wait. He gets over a girl faster than any other people. So yeah who cares. Whenever i heard that he got a new girlfriend, i always have the urge to tell those pitiful girls how hypocritical that THING is and how he use to treat me. Whatever. I dislike him.

"I have reasons to hate you forever,
And you just proved yourself"

Tags replies.

2006-10-08T01:12:00.000+08:00

Okay im so sorry. i realised i didn't visit blogs for ages and nt even my own blog. I should have came in and return those tag replies. BUT now is not too late either right? im gonna do the replying in my blog entry. Is that okay with you all? okay i hear no objection so here we go! LoLOLOLOL!!!! =p

Me to-

Min: sry i dun think you will need to go back to school now. COS you finished your promos! WOOTS. congrats.

=) : I think so too! lols. but right, i nid the money. So i have to work the long hours. SOBXXX. Erms...SORRY. haven't been blogging. LoLs. =X

D-WYSON: LoL. yea i will chill. after i murder those asses. =D

Darrell: i bet you are in other people's topic all the time. Just like now. LoLs.

shun: LOLOL. oh i see. ahahas. you are mad la can? hahas. totally la. he was walking towards PS lo. and im walking the other way. So bu fang bian. And how cna you use me as your free publicity? LIEWS. im like so popular. LOL! =p

=): you wanna noe how to destress? add me in msn and identify yourself. =DD

Jianhow: EH is you never come and talk to me one can? Liews. now still wanna tell ms nai. nvm me, long and her still remain a good relationship. unlike you. =pppp

Matthew: Hahahahas. sry la. was busy marh. =p dota cannot chi fan one. dun dota so much. cos you get owned too. =X

Madchelle: yea i updated! with all the tag replies! LOL! =X

Roman: WOah thanks for the cheem words. LoL. thanks for coming to my blog and leave your prints too. i so miss you. LoLs.

Alfred: ALFRED! IM VERY BUSY LEHHHH. LoL. =D

benjaaaa: sure do. thats the very least i can do for a friend. =DD

alan`: I miss talking to you too la mean porkie. LoL. what meal sia. you are supposed to treat me to my meal OKAY! =p

okay thats it for the tags till now. i will try to come here more often to at least reply the tags. do tag more often though. you wil never know when will be the lucky draw.( that such a lie. LoLs.) Oh wait. you all may win an exclusive photo album with all my super model pictures in it. =D how cool is that? lols. =D and i wanna share with you all my schedule for the last week of holidays. I just realised how packed it IS. lols.

Sunday, 8 Oct 06 : Working full shift. 10am to 10 30pm
Monday, 9 Oct 06: Working Mid shift. 12pm to 8 30 pm
Tuesday, 10 Oct 06: Working Mid shift. 12pm to 8 30 pm
Wedesday, 11 Oct 06: Check into school for training camp. 7pm
Thursday to Satuday, 12 Oct - 14 Oct 06: In camp doing training. Timing alters
Sunday, 15 Oct 06: Working Full shift. 10am to 10 30pm

THERE GOES MY LAST WEEK OF HOLIDAY! and i thought i can spend my last week of holidays with my friends. LoL. OH WELLS! i guess thats life. hope i won't get too tired for everything. LoL. i nid to check my timetable too. LOL. =X~

I need a break. SERIOUSLY! lols. =X i hate the haze. its making my nose itchy and sneeze like nobody's business. LoLs. MAY THE SKY BRING RAIN AND DISPENSE THE HAZE! lols. =p

motherfarkers.

2006-09-22T01:25:00.000+08:00

OKAY. it has been long since i last bitched about people but some fat asses and one prostitute just pushed the button.

WARNING! PARENTAL GUIDANCE ADVISED. Don't read if you don't have a parent with you.

Some Mother farkers who didn't get enough of their mothers' pussies who were sitting behind us ( alf ben and me) were actually talking about us! They think they were soft enough so that none of us could hear when their sausage mouths are just too farking big. Obviously they didn't know that although i have small ears, my ears are actually on an auto mode in hearing things around me. And thankfully, i heard those fat pigs talking.

Mother farker 1 : "i think it's a gay outing, har har har."
Mother farker 2: " Ya i think so too! look! Ew. I saw alot of gays recently"
Mother farker 1: " Can we go home alfred?( in a gay voice)" ( i was saying this to alf and they heard me)

Thats all i remembered clearly. The rest, are just some pigs talking. Don't mind it. Okay Everything was fine when he actually imitated me. That has just totally pushed my button. I mean, LOOK AT YOURSELF! Both of you are fat, ugly, fair, short, speaks bad english, looks like she-male ( becos they practically have boobs), And they can actually tease people when they are very much worse themselves. They can go lick their mothers' pussies and have an incest relationship with their moms and after they are done, they can go fark themselves or maybe to their likings, get farked by their pathetic fathers. It's pretty sad how parents actually gave birth to such pieces of shit to pollute the world. Wasting so much air and resources. Especially when they are SO FARKING FAT! I think they are just 'Too gay to function' ( quoted, Mean Girls).

Nothing is going on inside their puny brains. I mean if they have intelligence, they could have better english and not mix chinese with english and totally sark in it. Linguistically declined people can actually speak better english than those fat mother farkers. If they are good looking, speaks good english, not that fair, taller, slimmer, MAYBE they can talk a little about others. BUT THEY ARE UGLY, FAT, FAIR, SHORT, LINGUISTICALLY DISABLED DUMBASSES! ( sorry i had to repeat it because of my anger towards those kind of people. LoLs.

Anyways after all these shit happened, we saw chen wei lian outside that food court. He practically walked past us like about 10cm away only when we were still cursing and thinking where are those fat alienated pigs are working. Cos' we can go "play" with their service especially when we were with people who can speak well. Anyways, weilian was holding this stick and walking down the road. no one was around him to assist him. So i guess under the stage of fame and popularity, it's also just like us, walking down the street alone. Oh wells. hahahas. sorry for blogging late and for this post. I just need something to blog about. Oh and good news. I just killed a cockroach in my room just now ( no my room is not dirty. it can fly you see) =X

People having prelims, good luck and study hard! remember to destress yourself! =D If you guys dunno ways to destress, ask me. i'll teach you guys the orthodox way of destressing. =D

=X

2006-09-09T00:49:00.000+08:00

OLA! okay i shan't waste anytime on this intro so yeah i'll just get on with blogging. LoLs.

Okay in case people still don't know, i am now working in topman/topshop. I'm working on fridays, saturdays and sundays, and full shift. Meaning im working from store open to store close. LoLs. madness. Tired. LoLs. and FUN! Oh my god. Work is superly fun la. hahahahahas.

Anyways, today at work, i was doing the fitting room area ( as always because you can slack there :D ). Okay what we have to do is to serve the customers by removing the hangers and place the clothes in the changing room to fascilitate the customers to have a more convenient way of changing. There were alot of clothes and customers there to try on the clothes and they would normally say " Nah, thanks. I'll just look around."

So i was saying, i was serving the lady today at work and because she took the hangers ( because sometimes i just cant be bothered to remove it. So they just walked in.) into the changing room with her. After changing, she was telling me that she is going to get one top. Seeing her hands full of tried-clothes, i offered to empty her hands for her to leave the dressing room. Okay here's the embarassing moment. There were hangers sticking out of the pile of clothes she was holding. So i though by carrying the whole pile onto my hands would be fine, BUT there's a hook on every topshop hangers. So accidentally, the hook was hooking onto that lady's V shaped blouse she was wearing, revealling a little or her................( think yourself). I was like SO SO SO SO apologetic that i panicked and attempted to pull out the hanger like very quickly because it was really an awkward situation. I pulled and the tip of the hanger ALMOST hit her face. I was like HOLY COW! I'M SO SCREWED! I kept saying sorry and smiled to her in an apologetic manner. Thank god she is understanding and she knew it was an accident. She said " nah it's okay". Oh my god. So sweet la. LoLs. Then again, she kinda pretty too. LoLs.

That was the first pai seh experience i had upon working since last week. So yeah. More to come next time. :D

Oh and i have to skip my class BBQ just because i have to work too. SOBX! I so wanna meet my friends. I miss them alot. I'm sorry nad! That i can't go despite your long ago notice. We will meet out soon right? i hope. :D

Anyways i have to work tomorrow so i'm going to bath now. Cya people. Have a nice day ahead. =B

2 days after holiday

2006-08-26T00:32:00.000+08:00

Signs of me being emo. is that
1) No mood to do anything including my favourite pass time, chatting.
2) Feels like going to Esplanade and sit alone.
3) Doesn't feel like going home.
4) Will take detour on the bus before i reach home.
5) Feels like the world is annoying.

I din't feel any interest in talking for the past two days. I went Esplanade and sat alone while my friends sat behind me on friday. I don't feel like going home these two days and i took detour home. Am i really emo? I don't know.

In the luminous comet,
The chilling glacier shines bright.
I wished upon a shooting star,
Hoping a reply to descend upon me.

The very sight of you makes my heart stop.
Feeling every atoms messing up my thoughts.
I giggle and smile as i looked up into your eyes,
Feeling lost and empty,
You gave me hope.

The slightest glimpse of light was taken away.
You walked away.
Leaving me lost and yet again.
I tried to reach out but you seem so far away.

Disappointed by life
Destroyed by beings.
Dreaming of people who does not exist.
Far across the distance i see a rainbow.
A rainbow we can never reach.
A place we can never go.
A feeling we can never feel.
A sound we can never hear.
I dropped into the midst of abyss.

Eltech paper.

2006-08-21T19:27:00.000+08:00

OKAYYYYY!!! Today i'm blogging early because i didnt blog yesterday did i? WELL maybe because i felt Kind of emo and i went studying outside with my bunch of crazy friends at DELIFRANCE ( omg im broke now) when i am feeling very dizzy and nauseous. Can you believe that?! I STUDIED when i was dizzY! Normally when i was dizzy i would stay at home and slack and sleep for like 12 hours or so. BUT NOOOOO! I went out to study for my paper which was today, 9 - 11 am. This is a paper that i hoped to get full marks for and apparently after the paper, i know i cant.

I woke up today still feeling slightly nauseous and as if my world is spinning. I told my Mom the night before and she came and tend to me this morning. I asked her to wake me up after my brother is done with showering ( dam he was faster than me by that 5 secs) and at 7 20am, i was awakened. I told her that today i'm having exam and i am very scared for it because there are still truck-loads of formulaes and units to remember despite having formulae list. I only mastered a few and the rest, i am clueless. You see, this module talks about circuits and electricity. If my units or that particular number is wrong, i would use the wrong number to substitute into the formulae and solve it. The answers would be wrong!

When i boarded the air conditionered double-decker bus ( the best bus to expect from SBS), i was like so thankful that it was so empty and i managed to find 2 empty sits and occupy them to myself! ( muhahahas) I was flipping the notes and listening to my Ipod, ignoring all the people around me. LoL. Although i did move a bit to make space for people to sit but they didnt want the sit and chose other places. OH WELLS. Then i put my leg over the seat and put my bag on top. I was really concentrating very hard to remember all the units and formulaes by hard and yeah i did. Except that i missed out one ( oh damn there goes 3 marks).

I reached school thinking that i would still have at least half an hour to study a bit more but NOOO, i was almost late for the exam. WHY?! BECAUSE OF THE SLOW BUS! Thank god i have long legs ( woops! :D) and i know how to fly. LoLx. ANYWAYS, i went into the exam hall and i heard one fat woman shouting her lungs off asking us to "make it quick and go to our sits." and " MOVE IN! THERE ARE ALOT OF SPACE INSIDE! DON'T BLOCK THE WHOLE ENTRANCE!" Then i was like, "whatever mean old fart" Slowly, i put down my bag and pulled out my pencil case and read the small note i have in it looking for my sit number. 577 ( lucky number okay!). So i went to my seat and thought i could finally sit down comfortably ( although i feel like peeing, but the exam was starting so nvm that.) BUT NO! When i turned my head, i saw my class's "legend" ( he got 2 100% for 2 modules and the exam we sat this morning was one of them) sitting beside me. The natural reaction i had was " Oh my god! Why are you sitting beside me!?" I literally shouted that statement and he was looking at me and smiling. LoLs! Then i said " Die la die la. Pressured liaos! Eh later let me see. :D~"

When the lecturers were giving out the paper, i turned to Gab ( the legend i told you about) and offered my hand saying " GOOD LUCK LEGEND" He took my hand and give it a firm shake. And smiled again. What he did not know was that i was secretly taking his knowledge away for every moment he held my hand. ( okay sorry i drifted from the topic.) Lols.

Anyways, the paper started and i start choosing the four questions that i am going to do. The lucky numbers are....... 3,4,5,6.
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I was doing the papers.
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And until question 5, i realised that i can't do 1 part of the question. Thinking that i will lose more marks than question 1, i changed my 5 to 1. I was doing and doing until i found out that I WILL LOSE MORE MARKS IN QUESTION 1 THAN IN QUESTION 5. I was totally lost at that moment but looking at the time, i don't have time to redo question 5 again. i quickly finish off the question and moved on to 6. After that i had 20 minutes left for me to think and do. I managed to finish off question 1 knowing that the answer are all wrong. I checked my answers for the rest of the questions. Then when i moved on to the last question to check, Question 1, i realised that i got the wrong Total capacitance and that is why the voltages for my V1, V2, V3 and V4 are all wrong. So using the last 10 minutes ( keeping in mind that i needed to pee urgently =X), i managed to change the total capacitance and the Charge for the circuit and also the Voltages for the first 3 capacitors. I couldn't change the last one because there isn't any time left! I was changing a few equations although the lecturer said time's up. He standing at my row and saying loudly that no writing is allowed ( i think to me) but i didn't care. I kept on writing. Then when he walked hastily to me, i acted as if i was checking the paper and not writing anything. OH WELLS! :D~ Still i couldn't finish the last Voltage. That's why i said i couldn't get full marks for this module already. SADDENED! But i do hope i can secure a 90+ if possible and get an A+ for it. :D~

Wedesday will be our LAST paper ( YAY!) and i do hope that i can score well for it too because that module was one of the modules that i did not bad for my Common Test. Anyways Good luck to people having exams tomorrow! hahas! i will be studying too! HEEHEE! And for my dear friend who is in the competition NOW ( i do mean NOW, this instant) at toa payoh stadium, GOOD LUCK AND WIN THAT MEDAL! hahas.

GPA 3.5 please
GPA 3.5 please
GPA 3.5 please
I dont mind 3.7 but,
GPA 3.5 please
GPA 3.5 please

CIAOS PEOPLE! xP

OMG

2006-08-19T21:47:00.000+08:00

OLA people! I'm here to blog liaos! oKay that sounded really cheena. Anyways! The paper ended yesterday. EG1. I really really really am disappointed la can? I mean why cant i get an A for my math for ONCE?! I calculated my careless mistakes and the number of wrong answers i have. I can only get a B for that paper. WHY WHY WHY?! AHHHHHHHHHH! It's so gonna affect my GPA after all the exams. DIE LA! 3.5 please please please! I don't mind getting 3.7 ( cause i can beat mich in her sem 1 GPA), but at least 3.5 PLEASE! i think MTprac ( it is just like DnT dammit) will pull me down alot. Because i didn't study one bit of the paper which was held weeks ago. I was facing the class because there are not enough tables already. So i was facing my "class twin" Kai. Then i was like don't know alot of stuff. Then my twin also have no idea what to write. So he decided to do a bold thing. He quickly snatch my paper away and passed me his. Then we were like refering here and there memorising the answers. LoL. then a few students of other class saw us then i was smiling at them. HAHAHAHA! What's more? the teacher didn't realise that im using blue pen and the paper was written in black ink when he was standing beside me. LOL! Then when a few people went up to him and hand up the papers...we changed the paper back. It was so fun la! hahahas. Oh wells! now for the next exam. 21st Aug. Eltech. The one that i have to really work hard and score the best in. I have to get an A. Definitely. HAVE TO! hahas. Anyways we're having an E2 meeting now on MSN. Have to concentrate in the meeting. loLs. cya around peeps! good luck agaiN! =D

Post exam madness!

2006-08-18T02:33:00.000+08:00

OH MY GAWD! It's only a few hours away from my major end year exam and i'm still here blogging away like some kids without any worries. Trust me. I am not so scared about my exams that i can just scream and wake the whole neighbourhood now. It's Engineering Mathematics 1 tomorrow. It's one of my weakest subject. No matter in poly or in secondary. I am still weak in math! I wanna do well in the exam because next semester, they will be using our exams ( which is this one) and the next semester's common test as a marking of what choices we can enter for our second year. SO i have to score well in the exams that are coming. AND i only have a few hours left to change the fact of scoring badly. HOW HOW?! okay i think im gonna wake up early tmr and go to school and do 2 of the revision papers. And hope that the teachers are kind enough to give us easy questions and let me score like A+ for it. PLEASE!!!!!!! LoLs. I so wanna score 3.5 for my GPA la. I dun mind having 3.7 but 3.5 is my target now. LOL! =X

So yeah now is like 2.39am now. i better hasten up the speed of my hair drying and go to bed. if i am late for exams tomorrow, i will be screwed. It starts at 2pm by the way. LOl. ANyways people! Thats all for the short blog entry today! =D Cya all around yeah? Love ya all lots. LoLs. Good luck to me and everyone having exams soon. =D

Woots.

2006-08-17T03:06:00.000+08:00

HEYYYS. im back to blog. LoLs. nowadays im visiting alot lesser than usual to my blog. I dunno why but i just dun feel like reading. LoLs. Exams are around the corner and i have to stardee! LoL. i think today's entry will be a short one becos its like 3.ooam+ now. So i have to sleep. LoLs. Have to wake up tomorrow to study in town. LoLs. and have ICE CREAM! xD it has been long since i last had ice cream. AND. HERE'S SOMETHING FOR EVERYONE! Dont go to Serangoon Garden's and eat their mee goreng there. Its poisonous. I got poisoned twice. LoL. not literally poisoned but if i eat mee goreng on that particular day, i will visit the toilet at least 3 times at the rest of the day to %^&*. So yeah. DONT GO! >.< Although they put enough spice in there and tastes not bad. Just dun eat. LoLs. My stomach is still uncomfortable. DIE lo. LOLS. =X ANyways im gonna head for bed now. GOOD LUCK TO PEOPLE HAVING EXAMS AND PROMOS SOON! JIA YOUSS! =D

Class

2006-07-25T20:28:00.000+08:00

OKay i know it has been long since i blogged but i am sorry okay? hahas. and so! here i am blogging once more! HEEHEE. so people must keep on coming to this blog for more JUICY gossips or maybe for my own personal life updates. LoL! So anyways i was telling my classmates today that i am gonna blog about every single one of them. Well because i just felt like it. LOL. Mainly because they do not noe this blog of mine and so they wun see what i write..oh and also...they will have the urge to see what im writing! LoLs. lalalala. im like so bad. LoLs. =X SO as i was saying, the following names coming out will be names of my classmates and the descriptions will soon follow after their names. Enjoy. :D

Cheong Yao - A girl with never ending questions no matter in lectures or real life.

Jing Ling - A girl always so enthu. to share her experience on certain situation especially when we are in a hot topic like haunted place etc. Only on occasion she is heard.

Xing Wei - A spontaneous girl who like to go home early and i was once "his" ex-girlfriend. LOL!

Min Han - A guy who is so smart to the extend of ignoring someone asking a question and only on occasion, he teaches one how to do.

Terence - A guy whose nick name is Aunty Teh Teh ( dont ask why). Also smart but only teaches people when he truely understood the topics.

Shu Han - A guy who likes to boast about what he has and how he own in games. Also a hardcore gamer.

Larry - A PRETTY guy whose laughter is louder than mine, more contagious than mine. A crapper like ME! =D

Yi Kai - A guy who is oftenly helpful and crappy.

Shaun - The crappiest guy i ever met and crapped with. An "ah beng" looking guy who DOESN'T SMOKE and always make people laugh.

Kelvin - A hardcore gamer who often neglect his studies.

Gerald - A guy who loves to act gay with all of us but deep down inside, an emotional great listener.

Riduan - A guy who loves to play soccer during lunch time and not eat. Stubborn and seldom listen to us despite playing so badly in games.

Edwin - An average guy who games while having Math lecture and still scores well for all his modules.

Gabriel - A LEGENDARY guy who scores almost full marks for most of his modules and also pro in game. (oh my tian-ness)

Hafiz - A tall giant who loves to do erotic stuns ( like showing his boxes by wearing super short shirts and bend down) and also a gaming pro.

Mokan ( die i forgot how to spell) - A guy with dimple and frequently seeing him wearing a hair band to bind up his curly hair to look cooler and it works for him. (recently got the numbers of his crush)

Guna - A guy whom i seldom talk to but sense the friendlyness in him.

Khairul - A guy who wears cap alot and stick around with the LEGEND.

Chun ming - A guy who went through NS already and does crap with us too. Good in confusing people with the confusing questions he asked to the lecturers.

Okay i think i forgot 1 or 2 people in my class. So thats all for my class people. HEEHEE!~ so yeah. this entry is for you guys to noe my class better. i hope it helps yeah? LoLS. woohooo. Dinner! My mom helped me DA BAO! LOVES! ^^

Realisation.

2006-07-10T01:30:00.000+08:00

I do realise that Friends are hard to keep. It's hard to stay in contact with each and every friends you have in your life although you very much want to be a little closer each day and not get pull apart. Some try their very best to keep in touch with each other while some others just don't care. Some do have the thoughts but the effort is not there. While some in-human people just forgets about what friends are and couldn't differentiate between friends and acquaintances.

Be it friends or acquaintances, they've come into our lives for a reason. And for that, we should treasure every moment of the time together with them. I want to do these. I want to go out with every friends i knew everyday and link to them more. I want to be closer to them, but how? I can't replicate myself nor can i clone myself. It won't be the real me anyway. Everyday when i go online, i wanted to talk to everyone online, communicate with them more. Everytime i try to communicate with someone whom i have failed to talk to for very long, it will still fail even after the long duration. When others talk to me, i take them for granted. Seriously now, i don't think i really deserve anything from them. Sometimes i may even think that it's a chore in replying their messages when there are just too many to reply. (sorry to say that, but i don't want to hide anything, my friends)

I felt that i've changed. For the worse. Points that i have changed. Tell me if they are right or wrong. Feel free to tag me some points to show that i have changed.

1) I have been very rebellious lately. Especially to my parents.

2) I used to get very emotional when one person ignores me. Now the feeling is getting more shallow.

3) I am putting less effort in my work now in poly.

4) I am getting more and more oblivious to the surrounding.

5) I used to care alot if anyone hates me, but lately i thought about it, i don't really care about it anymore.

6) My mood swings alters alot and it's not PMS =X

7) I am easily angered more now as compared to my yester-years.

8) I think i don't like to talk anymore when i love to chat.

I think thats it for now bah. Anyone have any pointers on how i've changed? please tag me or drop me a message. The daily nagging at night and the daily shouting has became a routine to me now. I am feeling numb towards the surrounding. Maybe it is only me. When my parents shouts at me, i get the feeling of being more rebellious and not do as they say. Is this part of growing? Please tell me. I want to end this.

Dead

2006-07-05T01:38:00.000+08:00

i don't find a reason to come home anymore. It is quarrelling and more noise. My parents quarrelled because of me. Because of me, my house have no peace at night. All because i played games at night. I really want to cry now. It pains me to anger my parents. I don't want this to happen, but i can't control. I am now in tears. Leave me be.

FINALLY UPDATED!

2006-06-21T18:26:00.000+08:00

OKAY I KNOW I'VE MADE THIS BLOG SUPERLY DEAD AND IM SUPERLY SORRY YA? okay so anyways, its coming to the end of our holidays soon. HOW SAD! I thought i can still do the "slack-all-day-and-play" thingy more. Oh wells. School have to go on right? Anyways i had my volleyball camp last friday. It was SUPERLY DUPERLY ULTIMATELY ULTRALY OUT-OF-THIS-WORLD FUN! (for people who asked me how was it, you probably saw this before XD). First day of camp we had Treasure hunt and we had to go 5 stations in 1 hrs and had to play games in each station to earn marbles ( i'll say what's it for later). My group and i were running all over the place and comparing our group to other groups, i think our's is the most united! Oh yea! XP~ Then we played WATER BOMBS! WUHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! All the groups were given 200 water bombs to finish off the other 4 teams and also, the committee's team. At first we were discussing about stuff. Then other teams came and form alliance with us and decided to attack the committees first before we finish off each other. LoLS. In the end without having the committees down, we backstabbed each other. LOL! Funny. After the watcer bombings, we gathered in the Grand Stand and prepared ourselves to earn more marbles. We have to send a few of our team members out and answer the lame jokes to earn marbles. Here's one of the jokes that one of our group-mates, Daniel, answered.

" There are ants walking in the desert and it will normally it will show 2 lines that the legs of the ants made. Question is, Why is it that there is only one line when one ant is on the desert?"

Took us quite awhile and Daniel finally got it. "Answer : Because the ant is on a bicycle." For that, we were classified to be the lamest team ever because we topped all of the lame jokes competition. Muahahas! :D

We had lots of fun on the first day and lets get on to supper alright? That is when our marbles won come in. We are supposed to use our marbles to bid on the titbits that were show-cased one after another during the night. Well we had the nicest food and we bid on most of the food. So yeah! The most marbles get most of the food! MuHahahas! While we were bidding, Benjamin, Audris and I SAW A SHOOTING STAR! initially i thought it was a plane but i looked up as its flying very fast and its too bright to be a plane at that distance. A SHOOTING STAR! HOW COOL IS THAT?! WHEEEEEEE!! The last time i saw a shooting star was when i was in primary school! To Audris and Ben, it's their first time seeing it. So it's kinda fasinated by it. I mean, WHO WOULDN'T? I was asking alot of people if they saw the shooting star and showing off that i was one of the 3 lucky people who saw it. LOLS!

Second Day was said to be "xiong", but i don't see how. In the morning although we were reluctant to wake up, we woke up and went to gather at the Grand Stand and prepare ourselves to do P.T. (Physical Training) . Thanks to one of my girlfriend ( X-men - Storm), the weather changed and it started to rain before we started everything! LOLS! So all we did was some light exercises. muhahahas. In the afternoon after lunch, we had 3 hours of pool activities. We were playing Captain's Ball, Snatch Ball and Be the Sail in the pool in our school. It was just so fun! (oh and we get to tan! XD~) After that we went to play some station games around the indoor courts and on the track. I'll talk about our first station, "Eat the balls". We were supposed to catch ping pong balls with our mouths while one person bounce the ball off the table tennis table. There were a few of my friends in front of me at that staion. They failed at first try. It was my turn to go and i managed to get the ball with my mouth at first try! HOW COOL IS THAT?! (well maybe because i have bigger mouth than others. LoLs).

Let me talk about the night walk. It was a super duper fun and exciting part of the camp. I dare say most of us ( including me) were afraid to walk around Ngee Ann in the dark and were all freaking out when it was time for night walk. We were paired up, One guy and one girl. Hahas. So cooL! :P So this and this happened and that and that and this and that and that and this. LoLs. A few people broke down though.

Nothing much happened on the third day as we were all allowed to sleep till later morning. LoLs. And we didnt had breakfast. We got our camp t-shirt and our President break camp. Some of the committees were staying behind to take pictures. Using human to form their name initials! LoLS. I was one of the alphabets in their names. LoLs. We went lunch after that together with Ben, Daniel and Denise. Hahas. Its a super fun experience! =D

Anyways i wanna apologise for not updating for so long. And for having such an long entry to start off after a long rest. School is starting soon and i bet we will have alot of things to come. Good luck everyone! And to all JC students! GOOD LUCK! EXAMS ARE COMING! YOU GUYS WILL ROCK THEIR WORLD! Oh by the way, i found a twin who is so totally alike with me. And he wanted to be mentioned in my blog so yeah here i am talking about him. My twin. How honourable. LOLS! Okays it's 4am+ in the morning. I have to sleep. Nights everyone!

2006-06-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

As you and i look out of the same window,
You whispered into my ears,
"The stars in the dark calm sky is beautiful".
You asked you what did i see.
I told you,
"The mud on the solid ground is ugly"
You came forward, smiled the sweetest smile
And gave me a tight, warm hug.
"Views of mankind are different my dear.
Only to choose between pessimism or optimism."

I made up the short passage to show how different a person's view can be on a same situation. Oh wells! i think this has nothing to do with what i wanted to blog initially. No link at all. LoLS! I just wanna blog out what i had in mind earlier on in the evening while i was at home. LoLs.

Okay i'm just gonna blog a little today. Feeling extremely lazy. LoLS. After ELtech, which required us to do a open book practise ( i did not open my book lo!) as our common test is near. Then it was ENGmech, listened awhile and then shut down. LoLS! xD Okay lunch. My favourite part of school. Every friday we would have 2 hours of lunch break and today we decided to go play pool then eat. Kelvin and Terrence were first to play. Kelvin so totally trashed all of us. After my turn, i went back to the sofa which felt so comfortable to sleep. Unknowingly, I slept throughout already. My friends didnt want to disturb me from sleeping because only people who are ultra tired can sleep at a place full of noise. So yeah, it was SUPER nice, although when we were leaving, 3 of them came crashing down one top of me. LoLS. Pain..

We went to eat at around 1 45pm when our class starts at 2pm. We ate as fast as we could and rushed to our class which happens to be so very far away from the entrance. So we entered at 2 30pm after walking a thousand miles and climbing up a few steep hills. LoLs. What a fun day today. LoLs. I think i will stop here le bah...Laziness has totally overcame me already. Maybe because today is friday? LOLS! Oh and COMMON TEST IS ONLY NEXT WEEK! Wish me luck peeps! lols.

In time of need,
I will be there.
When i am of no need,
I linger in the air.
Call my name
and i'll be there.
Tell me what
and i'll achieve.
While in deep thoughts,
I think of you.
You whom i treasure.
Kinship and Friendship.
The ships i wish will never sink.

BA ZHANG DAY!

2006-05-31T11:15:00.000+08:00

wheeeeeeee.. today is ba zhang day! and i had 2 ba zhang for breakfast already! LoLS. Anyways..im like blogging in my lecture room.. LoLs.. i hav been blogging in my other blog and not in my own personal blog. LoLS woahhh.. hahas.. the teacher now is like quite bo chap.. cos she covered the topics for common test ( which is like next week) and now she wants us to do our revision paper. LoLs. I need to go in front of the classroom to do my revision in the book now... ( SEE I SO GUAI!) hahas.. i'll blog more maybe later or when i go home bah! =)

Poly - 4

2006-05-12T03:24:00.000+08:00

I'm bacK! hahas. I reached home at around 1130pm today lehs! like oh my god lo! BUT volleyball was super fun today! hahas! they got all the freshies to be divided into two groups. Advance Group ( people who knows how to play) and the New group ( people who doesn't know how to play) and they will be training within the group and be played against each other in the groups too. There were 10 girls and 8 guys (including me) in the advance group only. So we have to play the ball in the air consecutively without letting it drop onto the floor. It works like this. One ball, 18 people, 2 queues and countings. We reached 300 times in no time because we only drop the ball onto the ground for about 4 times? hahas. So its the main match again! We get to choose our groups and yes we did chose. Yet in the end, our Senior, Ming Yao, were picking out people to reconstruct the teams. I was one of the person who was picked out to join another group. In the end it doesn't even matter. Cos' i love the group i was in after the reconstruction! My team rocks! LoLs. We became the cham of the 4 groups! We even defeated the senior group! MUHAHAHAHAHA! okays thats ego. hahas. let me boast awhile can? hahas.. just kidding. But yeah, i got to know my team's name which are all new to me. They are people whom i talk to for the first time. There's Tiffany, Si Qi, "Jackalyn" (sry i dunno how to spell), Kenneth and Tommy! These were my other 5 members of the team! cooL! They have cool settings and spiking! Well, they made me be the main spiker. LoLs. Setter's Tiff. Okay so anyways, i've got news. I am just informed that NP's IVP ( the selection matches to enter school team) will be held on next Wedesday. It's a selection which will only be held once a year. So i think i'm giving it a try although i may still not up to the standard. No harm trying right? So yeaH! Wish me luck OKAY? I really wanna go into IVP! Must train hard! Oh wait. That means i'll have volleyball training for 3 days! OH die. I hope i can cope well with my studies too! Cos' i cant seem to understand some chapters of my modules. NAMELY Engineering Mechanics. ahahs! Its like 3 42am now. i have to go sleep le! NIGHTS PEOPLE! have fun!

Poly- 3

2006-05-10T23:12:00.000+08:00

Okays it's been long since i blogged and im really sorry. Anyways lets get down to blogging. Poly is really stressful actually if you ask me. The only difference in Poly from JC is just that we can slack a little bit more than JC students and we have no need to wear uniforms ( aww man i miss wearing uni). So why have i said so? BECAUSE LIFE IS SO STRESSFUL IN POLY! oh okay i mentioned that before, but it is really pressurising. First of all, on Monday, i did my very first individual 2 minutes presentation at my I.S. then. The experience was exciting yet lousy. While i was presenting, i was shaking alot. Shaking as in trembling. I was afraid that i may not be able to do well. Mainly because the audience are the people whom are not in my class. Well at least for most of them. My sit was at the back of the room so when i went back to my sit after presenting, i asked my friends if the paper i was holding was shaking. They said it was obvious! I am so dead. The teacher knows im nervous! DIE! It isn't my fault! We had to present the topic that was set by others! We had to write our own topic on a piece of paper and throw it into a paper bag and by calling out name after name, the teacher asked us to repick a slip in the bag. I got the topic "Public Property". I was like "what the hell?! what am i gonna do with it?!". After awhile the teacher asked me to go out to the photocopying shop to photocopy some papers for the people who didn't have that paper. A person struck my mind and i took my phone with me. I was taking my own sweet time walking to that shop and i called MICH! Apparently she was dismissed from lessons already and heading somewhere to chill. Anyways i was saying, i called her for help and asked for idea on what to present for it. She gave me lots of ideas and helped me with quite a number of main pointers that i presented. So a BIG BIG thank you to you michY!

Let get on with today shall we? I didn't remember alot of today cos' im frequently drowsy on Wedesdays in poly. Just that i had only 2 breads and one bottle of yoghurt drink to last me the whole day until dinner at 9pm. I had two ulcers in my mouth. One at the side of my tongue and the other is on my bottom lips. Those were the element which made me miss out on the feast that my cliques in my class were having while having tutorial class. I was starving during our break when my friends were all full and wanted to go to the library. I had to go out of the library alone and buy food. I was eating at the stairs outside the library alone and when i finished, i went into the library again. After break and to the last lesson of the day which is 2 hours, we were having ELtech tutorial. After the whole 2 hours, i finally understood a new law. Kirchhoff's Voltage Law. There's Voltage Divider's Law (which is know as Shaun's cake law in my class), but i didn't really understood how to apply it. Oh wells! Stress. I need to pay 100% MORE attention in class. I really have to. I do not want to fail my module and retake it again. I wanna see my classmates again in the second semester. I HOPE! SOBXX! Let me pray for that to happen bah! and i will really work hard for it. I hope i can.

poly life - 2

2006-05-03T01:51:00.000+08:00

Hey people! i'm back to blog at 1:49am! oh my tian! I am supposed to be asleep but came home only at 11 30pm. That was when i finished my CCA and my dinner with my seniors and friends. We were at Mac which was so packed that people studying there were having difficulties continuing to study. Why? Because our group were making alot of noise, shouting from one corner to the other corner of the Mac. It was my first time in that Mac cos' i don't really walk there when i was heading home everyday. It was super renovated and nice. Except our group who were making alot of noise, it is a conducive place to study! ATTENTION!! NEW PLACE FOUND FOR CRAZY MUGGERS! LoLX! It's 24hours too by the way. I was having our warm-up session and when we reached the running part (2 rounds on the 8th lane), i felt that somewhere NEAR my ankle ( not my ankle) is hurting. I was wondering what was the cause of it as i did not fall or did anything to get myself a fractured leg. I tolerated the pain and ran the rounds and through-out the whole training, that part on my leg was hurting alot. So during the matches that we played, I was handicapped as i couldn't run properly nor can i run fast. So anyways, i took my own sweet time to serve the ball because i have no need to run! WUAHAHAHAHA! Only for a few servings though.

Okay the bottom-line of today's training is that i am so freaking tired. During lectures and tutorial, i did not understand what my teacher was saying! Especially Engineering Mechanics. I suddenly had a mind block and nothing seems to go in nor can i understand what was coming out from my lecturer's mouth. I had to bother my friend sitting beside me to teach me (he's darn good at it anyways). After the lesson, i went to the library for further study. I didn't know that the library had a stairs for us to go up until my friend asked me if i wanna join him at the 4th floor! Okay our library really rocks. LoLx. So anyways, during that time intervention before my CCA starts, i read up on the part where i really really don't understand. Fortunately, i managed to get some information into my brain and solved the question that our lecturer went through. Yays! So i was telling Mich that i'm very scared that i will fail that module and re-take. And we come to terms that we are going to study on Saturday i think. Further information shall be notified by Mich to me on Friday. LoLx! I really wished i could understand everything!

Anways, while i was at home ( 12am onwards), i realised that not many of my friends were online on MSN. People that i would expect them to be online did not come online. For example, SY didn't come online for days already! I missed him! and also some other friends. Maybe it's just not me who is busy everyday. They have their own life to live. Own problems to care about. So i have come to realise that in poly, you have to be independent. Keeping in touch with your old friends will be very difficult and making new friends in poly is somehow challenging. I really hope that we wll come out one day and hang out some day. I miss you guys. Everyone! I will really hug you people. Oh man. Anyways, i must be going already. Lessons starts at 10am tomorrow and it's 2:13am now already. So have fun with your life and please don't stress out too much. Remember i will always be here thinking of each and everyone of you. :D

LABOUR DAY!!!

2006-05-01T21:06:00.000+08:00

HELLO IM BACK! hees! Let's not waste time and get into blogging shall we?

So let me recall back to yesterday's event. It was Julio's birthday celebration in advance. So after Me, Jasmine, Sant and Boon went to church, Me and Jas went to meet Julio at Orchard MRT station. Apparently we are eating at the Swenson's near Somerset MRT so we have to walk ALL the way back from Orchard MRT to Wisma to Taka then cross road then look for Crown Hotel. We were so very hot, AND HUNGRY! So yeah, we went into the restaurant and sat down. So we discussed about how are we going write our birthday message to him on the self-made calendar made by May and Lin. It's so nice can? So after some whisperings and all, Julio was the only one who was oblivious to what we were doing. Okay there are alot of happenings so i'll just cut short ( cos' i'm lazy~ xP ). After eating ( FINALLY), we went out to the roadside. Lin made Julio stand in the middle of the circle made by us and on the count of 3, they started whacking him really hard. No mercy ( you see how girls are evil at times?) =P. Well only me and May showed mercy and spared him from our wrath. MUHAHAHAHAHA! We headed down to Ngee Ann city and on our way there, we were saying that we hadn't have enough photos ( after taking Neo-print at Heeren. We are not called camwhores for nothing =D). So we went to the fountain, and let our imagination run WILD!!!! WOOHHOOO!! There were flash everywhere.. (shing shing shing). Super poses. Super nice. Super cool. Okay after the photo taking session, we all went home. - The end-

Okay are you like thinking why i ended so fast? I know you people want to read more ( oh please), so i'll just blog more! HAPPY!? ( *grins*)

Let's talk about today. Apparently i woke up at 1pm+ and surprisingly, i went to brush my teeth straight away after i woke up! Cos' normally i would just lie on my bed awhile, sit on the sofa awhile, slowly crawl to the kitchen awhile then brush. LoLx. I had 2 pieces of chocolate cake for brunch today and that was just saddening! I need more FOOD!! @.@" After stoning on my sofa for awhile, watching cartoons ( YAYs my fav.), i went to bath and went out together with my Mom and brother! To shop for our sport shoes. Why did i went shopping for those? BECAUSE I'M BECOMING A PROFESSIONAL SPORTSMAN! MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! (okay that's just crap.) Anyways, yeah we got our shoes. We came home and ate our second dinner (We ate Ramen before we went home). So when we reached our house, i realised that i forgot something. I MISSED HALF AN HOUR OF HARRY POTTER! oh my tian.

Oh wells but i still watched 1 and a half hour of it. COOLNESS! Like i said, I lOVE MAGIC! wheeeeeeeee.. Anyways, I thought it was 11pm+ already, but who knows! It's only 9pm+! WUHAHAHAH! Time really loves me. I love it too. Yet sometimes it just flies past like that *snap*

POLY LIFE! - 1

2006-04-29T16:48:00.000+08:00

HEY PEOPLE! okay today i won't start the blog with "ok sorry, i promise to blog more often", because some ARSE ( namely Desmond Peh Kuku Neh Neh Milkshake Sucker.) said i always do not update my blog and most of the time i started out with that. (ok im just kidding des.)

So anyways, i was saying, I'm back to blogging. It's our poly week already! OKAY we were all very impatient about school starting but after it started, i bet everyone wished that school have not start at all! We were all so busy and tired to the extend that we hardly go out already! For example, today is Long's birthday and normally we will go out together and celebrate it. This year, we did not because we were all very busy or just couldn't make it. And also, How's birthday which was 2 days ago. We did not go out either. We merely sent him a birthday message via SMS. Which is sad because they celebrated it with me on my birthday! Oh did i tell you i slept at the earliest time since 5 months ago? I slept at 1145pm! I ACTUALLY slept that early! ( that explains why i did not sms my bud on 12am yesterday.)

Poly. The first day of school was cool. I had IS ( Inter-disciplinary Studies) which i heard from my senior that we have to present something. True enough, we had to present something. As a group. So i volunteered to be the scriptwriter so i can escape from presenting, but i'm so wrong. After the main presentation, the lecturer called out all the scriptwriters to read out some paragraphs on our book. i was like "OH SHIT! How can how can!?) However, as you people know, i rocked (gosh!) the reading part. (LoL im just kidding) Thank god for the IS, i made my first 4 friends in my group. They were the first 4 people in poly to enter my msn list! MUHAHAHAHAHA! So cool.

Lunch was okay for the first few days of my poly because i still had no friends to eat with me. THANKFULLY! I have Kelvin to eat with me! YAYS! So we had lunch together for the first few days. After 2days, our schedules are different already. So we didn't had lunch anymore. Sad. Luckily i knew some friends in my class already. So i asked if they wanna have lunch!! Oh yays!

CCA. I joined volleyball ever since i went for the orientation. They had training on tuesday and thursday in the first week already! OkAY that was really fast. These were the days that i reach home at 11 30+pm. These were the days that i have to spend 13hours in NP in total because class starts at 8 on these 2 days! 13 HOURS! MORE THAN THE TIME I SPEND AT HOME! But yeah, after the training, both me and Kelvin thought it was quite boring cause we were learning about the most basic of volleyball although we already did that YEARS ago. I thought "why are we still doing this when we already know all these things?". It's not that we are super pro in volleyball or something, but i thought we could train more on spiking. Then, a thought struck me. Training from the basics again will make us better in our basics so that we could handle what is more to come in our volleyball years. Although we knew our basics, i dare admit that we aren't that good in it. So why not learn from them again so that we can be better rather than whining about why are we still doing our basics when we already know them already. I felt better after telling myself those and gave them the best of me. LOL, okay thats sound really dramatic but i thought of that "thought" while i was thinking of some tv show. So who says watching tv are wasting time?! XD~

Oh did i mention that i had rash all over my hands after the first volleyball training? I thought maybe it is just me who was dirty and got those rash. When i went back for training on thursday, i was wrong. I was not the only one who got the rash. Almost everyone in volleyball got rash! Except that i got the WORST. My whole hands were covered with rash and after the training they were itching like mad to the point that i was squeezing onto the metal railings to stop me from scratching them. The rash have not healed till now. Some are still itching. I think they are spreading to my legs because some spots on my legs are itching already! DIEE!~ I MUST NOT SCRATCH! Oh and you know how i kill those itch? i turned on my heater to the HOTTEST and burn them straight dowN! Felt dam nice can?! but the sprinkled water are creating more itch if i didn't turn on the heater to the max. SEE! I so "ming ku". Sacrifice my hands for the sake of volleyball! ALL HAIL VOLLEYBALL! Okay that sounded like an unorthodox clan. LOL! Oh wells! As long as I, the angel, is concern, nothing is evil! LOL.. lalalalalalaa! enjoy this post! i hope you guys are entertained! Okay maybe you don't know if you are entertained. Here's a check list.

1) At any point of time if you find out that you are laughing/ smiling, you are entertained.
2) If you really enjoy yourself while reading and wanna read more, you are entertained.
3) If you think that you wanna punch me for the lame-ness (if any), you are entertained.
4) If you laughed/smiled after reading the check list, you are lame too. :D

x.x

2006-04-21T22:27:00.000+08:00

OKAY im really sorry for not posting any posts for the past few weeks. Been a little busy for blog. Except for gaming period that is. hahas. So lets do some blogging today. OKay lets start with my credit card selling job. On Thursday, i went to work after delaying myself for many weeks. I was given a place in Metro in Causeway Point to promote 2 cards. Metro credit card and Cashplus. Okay initially i thought Metro was a place with alot of wealthy ladies shopping for perfume and expensive items. However i am so wrong. It appears that people who shops there are just looking around and didn't have intention in buying anything in Metro. Besides, there are hardly any customers in Metro already. It's like no business. I was situated at a booth in front of the escalator. Here is the statistic i came up with while i was standing at the back of the booth and slacking.

80% of the people coming down from the escalator are the staff.
80% of the remaining 20% are aunties who just love walking around looking at things they dun intend to buy.
50% of the 4% are people who saw me and ran away.

Yes you guessed it. I talked to only 2% of the people coming down from the escalator in 9 hours. How many cards i sold? Well, i sold ONE pathetically pathetic card at 5 hours+. Oh did i say i was alone when i was promoting? ALONE! Hahas. And i realise i can really be independant even when i am alone. I was checking on my phone everytime. I almost talked to the lady promoter beside my booth who was promoting accessories. So at around 8pm+, the security guard came and talk to me about my promoting skills. I was like, "errr ya, i did. I did walk up to them, But they just look so murderous! hur hur hur." I went off at 9pm sharp and went straight to toa payoh to get myself dinner. KFC! hahas. Okay enough of my job. Let's blog about today. "MY ORIENTATION"

I woke up at 6 30am (super early like never before) and rushed everything and went out at 7 10am. I even ran after the bus in fear of being late for my orientation. When i reached Ngee Ann, i realise MY DEAR FRIEND DESMOND was late. Yeah. He told me to come early and he was late. Oh wells. Now we are quits! Oh and Keith and Anne came forward to me when Desmond reached. I was like " OH MAN! YOU WILL NEVER KNOW HOW HAPPY I FEEL TO SEE YOU GUYS! (K and A)". We chatted as we were waiting for Des's friend. Then we went in together ( i was still chatting away with K and A when we walk in). So alot of things happened during my orientation period. Oh by the way Desmond took me for orientation and HE SUCK!! OH GOSH!! SUCK DESMOND! YOU SUCK! i hope you read this. And please dont go around posting my pictures after stealing them from both Friendster and my wallet! sobx. The Ez-link booth was so packed that i decide to get my ez-link when sch starts on monday. I can't wait to see my classmates. Only that i hope to make new friends. I DO NOT look forward to school opening but i look forward in making new friends bah. LOLX! Oh i registered for volleyball as a CCA! Training is on every tuesdays and thursday! yays! Starting Next week! So looking forward to it. LoLx! i wanted to join Swimming too, but i decide to delay that thought until i can fully adapt to my new surroundings and cope with my own work. HEEHEE! ALL HAIL VOLLEYBALL! nights everybody! I'm worned out. hope you are entertained! =)

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2006-04-12T19:02:00.000+08:00

Okay moody entry. Parental guidance recommanded. So i went swimming today in the morning with Yilong. I didn't sleep well the night before ( or have i even slept?) and so i wanted some time to rest my eyes before swimming. So i asked Yilong if we could meet later. We delayed our swimming session from 1030am to 1130am. We swam till 2 30pm and went off to eat at kfc. Yilong was making a card for Sisi while i was feasting on my meal as i had not ate anything since morning till that time. After my meal, i took out my own card for Sisi and a stack of colour papers and start folding the difference for the number of paper cranes i wanted to give her. i completed them at around 5pm, including writing on the card itself. We went Popular awhile and went home upon completion of both our cards.

I reached home at around 5 30pm. Thinking that i have some time left before i go down to the UOB office in Raffles place, i switched on my laptop and chat for awhile. At around 5 52pm, Michelle called. She asked where i am and i said i was at home. Then she asked, "why am i still at home? You not coming already? You are supposed to be here by 6pm you know? I thought Jensen told you?" I was astonished when i heard i have to be there by 6pm. I thought i was supposed to be there by 6 30pm!

I quickly went to prepare. I panicked while putting my contact lenses and it hurt like my eyes were about to drop out when i put in my right lens. I was rubbing my eyes so hard that tears flowed out. Then i quickly packed my stuff and wore my shoes and ran out. I made a mess in my living room. I was walking as fast as i could, chewing onto the bread that my Mom gave me when i reached home earlier on. When i was around our school area, my gastric was hurting. I pressed on. When i look at the time near the bus stop, i almost cried as the time is running short. I was sitting at the busstop when She called again. I answered the phone and told her that i am around toa payoh. She scolded me and say i could go play pool and not go to the office already. I was like, "huh? i didn't say i was going to play pool.". Then after considering for awhile, i turned back and when back home. If i go there late, i would delay quite a few people from going home early. People like my "shi shu" Jensen. I didn't want anyone to be delayed and i went home to blog earlier on. I almost cried because i made one of my bestest "girl"friend angry. I didn't want that. All i could do was to say sorry. Yet it is too worthless when it is coming out from me. However, i will still try. I am sorry Michelle. Sorry for being late. Sorry for making you feel bad because i delayed a lot of people. Sorry to people whom have waited for me in the past. I will try not to be late. I will try......

woots

2006-04-11T16:13:00.000+08:00

OKAY! lets do some major blogging today alright?! hahas! First, i'm sorry about the sentimental entry previously, but yeah, i'm alright now. Thanks for all your concern! Really appreciated it. Anyways, as you all can see, there's a video uploaded into my blog. All thanks to my evil twin ya? Thank you (if you are reading this) heehee.

Why that video and why that song? Well, i was looking into my friendster and i viewed the people who viewed my profile. I found this guy's profile with all the music videos which are nice. 5 songs. Numb was the last. I viewed the first 4 music video and thought they are so cool. When i viewed the last, i repeated it over and over again. I thought, how can someone be treated like this in the world? It a very meaningful video and the song is nice. It fits right into the MTV. No wonder Linkin Park got the best music awards ( is it?) LoLx. Watch the video. Tell me how is the girl is treated. Oh by the way, i think i almost scream out loud and cry when i saw her crying in the video. hahahas. BUt yeah, i controlled because it was 2am in the morning. Hahas.! Anyways! enjoy the video while i go to play pool! haha! i will blog more (if im not lazy) when i come back from pooling session alright? ciaos peeps!

Tired once more. Never ending work.

2006-04-07T02:22:00.000+08:00

Hey readers. I did say about blogging about Day 2 of my chalet ( i forgot most of it anyways.) but some stuff just cropped up and got all my emotions upside down. Many who have known me must have realise that i have a habit of not sharing my problems although i do appear to be troubled. This is so because i did not want anyone else to be involved in my problems and be vexed by them. Next, Friends. This word made me have sleepless nights and gave me a heavy heart. The policy i have, "Friends enter into my life, Never will they leave", is having alot of troubles. I tried to maintain alot of Friendships because i do not want to lose any of my friends who entered into my life. Be in by surprise or arranged. If one friend ignores me, i would be down until i solve the problem and have that person talking again. Yet, no matter how much i tried, some people are just unsincere to be friends again. I do not know why they had ignore me in the first place. Maybe due to the long time of not contacting each other?

I don't know why are people so stressed lately. Even myself, i must say, is stressed by Life itself. Life have allowed me to taste the sweetness of it and also showed me how devastating it would be. The desperation that i possess for friends is increasing tremendously. When ever i am alone, i think alot. Thinking more than i can imagine. Sometimes i just wish that i had amnesia. Not remembering what problems it might have in life or with friends and enjoying life without any worries. It would be very irresponsible of me to do so. Alot of my friends do care, but i did not give them any chance to. I kept all to myself except my contagious laughter and happiness. Seeing others happy makes me happy. So why bring myself down by sharing problems? I know sharing problems is better than not sharing because you have someone to carry the burden with you. This is what i tell others usually when they needed help. Yet, i did not heed to my own saying. Sometimes i feel like everything is coming down onto me like one big bully. Yet when i thought over what am i troubled with, i can think of none but friends. I guess only friends can be the only major problems in my Life. I do treasure them, but do they treasure me? The saying that i always believed in. "Only when you lose something, you will find it dear to you."

I sincerely plead to everyone. All my friends. Please. If i'm in the wrong in any situations or anything that i did which might make any of you upset, please tell me. I know this blog entry is a little too sad and it's not normal for me to blog or mention anything this sad. But I really cannot take anymore stress about friends. Please.

Was i annoying
Was i possessive?
What have i done wrong
Just to care?
Some advised me not to care.
Yet i did not heed their advice.
Willingly, i waited.
Was i wasting my time
Or have i gained experience?
Sometimes it hurts just to talk.
Sometimes it hurts just to care.
Even when someone is neither
One whom I have met or know well,
I would care.
I am exhausted
For i have encountered these countless times.
I am drained
For i have gave too much.
I am weak
For i can do nothing.
Friends make the whole of me.
The real, solid me.

Shagged

2006-04-05T23:34:00.000+08:00

Okays i'm back to blog. It has been days since i last blogged. So i'm here to fulfill my promise as to blog OFTEN ( take note, its often and not daily. =P). So ya, here i am. hahas! Anyways i just came back from a chalet organised by my friends! LoL~! i will try to elaborate on what i did everyday! LoL. Overall, its fun-filled and theres lots of food to eat. LoLx =P

Okays here we gooooooo...

Day 1.
We reach Pasir ris at 8+pm and since there are 2 gates, we went to the Coasta Sand one. However, after much delay and waiting, we realised that we are at the wrong gate. We should go to the Pasir Ris one. The one that we have to pay to enter (but in the end we din pay and went in.. LOL.) We were holding on to quite a number of heavy things and i think our hands grew longer by a few inches.. LOL! Oh by the way i was wearing bright orange shirt and carrying my bright orange bag. Felt so "bright" at the point of time. LoLx! Anyways, we entered the place and found ourselves feasting on some crackers and cup noodles! LoL! It was not our dinner yet though. We had Macs for dinner. I was dam hungry and bought extras! LOL! woopz! Again, we found ourselves slacking in our chalet watching tv! LoLx. I switched the tv channel to channel 8 to watch "Da Chang Jin" although only 2 of us wanted to watch it. hahahahahahas! It was very exciting can? Lolx. After all the feasting and TV watching, all of us found out that the VCD+Disc player was not working due to the loose cover. We ended up having loud music and singing to the point that i think some people outside our chalet was playing loud OLD music. (did i mention old as in the 80s?) At around 12+pm, we suggested going out and have a stroll around the area. We were walking by Cheers and all when i suggested going to the beach. We discussed it for a little while and decided to go. Lol! BUT! here comes the problem. We reached the entrance of a park which is connected to the beach. It was already very dark inside the park except the areas with the lighted lamp posts. There were 5 out of 7 of us walking into the park (the other 2 decided to sing in the chalet), so i thought it was okay and no one will be frightened because there arequite a few jokers within ourselves. As we walk in deeper, i felt that my friends were walking slower and to the point that i'm walking alone in the front, i turned back and saw them discussing that they should turn back. In about 5 seconds of hesitation, they ran for the entance that we came in from. Pushing, squeezing and screaming. I was like, "eeerrr, okay, never mind about the beach" and walked out slowly towards them. Back at the chalet, the 2 girls who stayed behind were still singing like professionals while we went in and join them. Lolx! i was quite upset with the "suddenly back out plan" but after much feasting, i felt okay. LoLx. Guess we weren't meant to go in. hahas. After a few hours, people were getting really bored and suggested to go out again. In a joking manner, i brought up the earlier situation to stop them from going out. LoL.. (everyone was lazy anyways). So after much of the "K-box' session, we were all lazing around on our beds, watching some food show. Bad move. We all began to feast again. Main eater - Me and Nellie. LoLx! Cup-noodles, Twisties, Milo, Marshmallow and even cheese was not spared. Thankful the show ended and it, too, ended the risk of having an empty refrigerator on our first night. LoL. x)~

I guess the first 11-13 hours of my chalet experience is long enough for the whole entry. I will blog about Day 2 tomorrow okays? Please come and read about the it. Be prepared that Day 2 will be far longer than Day 1. MUHAHAHAHAHAHA! *cheers* oh and if any JC students are reading ( namely Jasmine and SENG YONG!), please sleep early okay? especially Seng Yong! You guys have school the next day one o! LOL! =) nights everyone!

im so pissed.

2006-03-30T18:37:00.000+08:00

OKAY! today im gonna get rude and vulgar for i have not sleep a wink since 3am ( the time im turning in). Wanna know why? read on.

I was about to sleep after switching the computer off when i heard the sound of some keys jingling outside our house door. Yeah, it's my brother coming home at 3am+. I thought it was nothing and acted like im already asleep when im wide awake. He came into the room and without hesitating, he switched on the lights, picked up the phone, dialled a number and started talking over the phone. It was his girlfriend. Okay, i thought it was just like some other irritating nights that after half an hour or so, he will hang up. Why i say it to be irritating is because like some other brothers, we shared our room and he was talking or should i say shouting over the phone on his bed which is beside my bed. To tell you people the truth, my sense of hearing is very sensitive when i'm asleep. Imagine all that noise he is making.

Okay, let's continue. So he kept on talking and talking and i waited so long for him to hang up. However, NOOOOOOOOOO. He decided not to. They were in an arguement ( sorry i have to say this) like some other nights too. I was so totally pissed off when he was speaking loudly over the phone as if there's no one sleeping at that time. Am i like invisible?! I may be thin and shorter than him but i'm very sure i am big enough for him to see that i am TRYING to sleep right?! Even when i gave those annoyed sighs, he remain ignorant and feign that no one is there. Even when my Mom goes to work in the morning at 6+am, He is still talking on the phone! Can you imagine how long i have to flip around my bed listening to the F.U.C.KING noise that he is making?! MAN, don't he sleep? Have he have no consideration at all?! He used to kick me and ask me to go out of the room when i answered the phone in our room late in the morning in the past. Look at what he is doing now?! LOOK AT WHAT HE THINKS OF HIMSELF! SELFISH, INCONSIDERATE ARSEHOLE!

I was so fed up to the point that i went to the living room and sleep. Even when he saw me stomping my feet into living room, he did nothing. I checked the time and it was 6 48am. I was sms-ing Jasmine because she's going to school. At 7.02am, he finally hung up and he came out and asked me into the room. "Oi, hao le. Ke yi jing qu le". I was like WHAT THE F.U.C.K he take me as?! Is there no basic manners in saying sorry anymore?! I went into the room and tried to sleep. Fortunately, i manage to sleep awhile BEFORE HIS FARKING ALARM WOKE ME UP AGAIN! WHY CAN'T HE JUST SPARE ME FROM HIS OWN CHORE?! After he went out, i tried to sleep. However, the dawn light is already at its brightest. I can't sleep anymore. Yet i still tried to sleep. I was flipping here and there on my bed from 12+ till the time when i finally gave up 4+pm. I woke up having a slight headache. Why am i suffering when he is now out there having fun of his own? Many adults says that younger siblings can always learn from the older ones. I BEG TO DIFFER! "Only learn from those with good example and for your own and others' advantage". Sad to say, I don't see ANYTHING that is good in my brother. Oh yes. He is very good looking. That i can't learn right? For i am ugly.

Anyways, i think i am going for a briefing for selling UOB cards in a roadshow that Michelle is currently working in. Can earn big money there. However there is one problem. I'm not confident of doing it. Approaching strangers have always been a chore to me although all my friends would say i have no problem in this because "shy" is never in my dictionary. That's because i am myself when i am with my friends. That is why there are no limit to my behaviour. To strangers, i am shy, withdrawn and reserved. That's what i am. So should i go? i want to go, yet, there's a tiny bit of my refusing to go. Any support for me to go? I need it. Thanks.

Oh by the way, My latest wish -- To see my dear fairy godmother. x)~

O.O

2006-03-28T02:56:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD! i cannot break my promise la! i have to blog! if not people wont get to read what i have got to say le..or have they got tired of my retarded-ness and moved on to other better blogs liao? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.. cannot leave me! i cant do without you all! AHHHHHHHhhh! *grabs on tight* BU YAAOOOOO!!!

Okay enough of it... time for blogging!

Actually i dont really have anything to blog about today..Just that i went to Ngee Ann poly ALONE! the trip was really really very lonely.. i was staring at the ground most of the time. Wonder why i was alone? Because all the people i asked weren't free/don't want to go..but THANKFULLY! i had Desmond in Ngee Ann to meet me and show me around and bring me to the places i was suppose to be.. cos if im alone, i dun think i will even be going to the right place..LOL.. and i had a PERFECT colour vision okay! PERFECT! :D oh btw..i bought my laptop already. It rocks, but the cost of it....is the holy potato kind of price..2 0 79 dollars. and you have to pay 79 dollars by cash because they can only take 2k from other banks other than OCBC. oh dam LoLx. And they made us wait in a lecture hall underground WITH NO RECEPTION and i was watching this Korean show which was played by the poly. DAM FUNNY LA CAN!? and touching.. hahas! oh and Desmond helped me check everything in the laptop.. i was like oKay.. thank god you are with me. If not i really don't know what i should do with that rectangle box with emits heat when switched on. LoLx. OH! did i mentioned that we both did eat anything since morning till 5+pm? and went home to eat our very first meaL? Mine was Maggie mee.. LoLx.. and ate my dinner at 11+pm. heh heh heh.

SO bottomline is.. THANK YOU DESMOND (if you are reading this) ALTHOUGH YOU DIDN'T TELL ME WHAT IS THE INTERBANK GIRO IS AT THE END OF THE DAY! HEE HEE!

oh darN

2006-03-24T16:32:00.000+08:00

Ahem Ahem! ready for another "axe-cite-ting" blog entry? =.=" LoL! first of ALL.. i would like to thank those people for reading my blog and making it lively back again! wuhahaha! thank you, xie xie, terima Kesi, Kamsahamida, Arigato Gozaiimas!! wah sai. im multi lingo ( although i might spell them wrongly) LoLx! (nah i only know thank you in that lingo.. x] )

This blog entry is a little late for yesterday's experience while too early for today's. So..lets just forget about what happened yesterday and carry on with today shall we? HahaS! Went to play badminton at 11+ am (when i slept at 3 40am last night! omfg)... And apparently IM NOT LATE! ( yesh im not late michelle, dont doubt even for a jiffy) Cos when i was on the bus, all my friends going for the sport were all on the bus too! and its only when we were alighting that i found out there were on the same bus. =.="

OH! there we were..playing like some loonies.. BUT i think i got trashed by ching in badminton.. although i do have as many ball-in-s as her... i need to train liaos laaaaa... sian-ed!! So currently i doing Volleyball, Swimming and badminton as sports. How cool is that? woot woot! And going sentosa for sun-tanning as part-time sports.. LOL.

So now...im blogging...again.. YAWNS laaaaaaaa... oh and i just shit-ted twice today. LOL.. thats so disgusting that why i decided to name this "thingy" called "i'm-just-kidding" ya? LoLz! AISH! i think i'll just stopp blogging liaos.. cos my brain is not functioning again ( Or has it ever function?) LoLx.. so ya! cya around peeps! keep my tag board alive!! WHEEEEEEEEEEE!!

hoho

2006-03-22T19:06:00.000+08:00

OKAY! its wasn't my fault that i didn't blog yesterday! i was blogging half way before my dad came in and turn the switch off! it was at 3 o clock! oh my god....wasted my time to blog that one whole paragraph la can?! Anyways bacK to blogging alright? x)

Yang Zhi asked us out for the VERY FIRST TIME! holyyy! So... Me, Yilong and him went to East Coast and cycle (while i rollerblade). LoL... it was like really cooL! because there isn't many people in sight! So even IF i fall (which i didn't), it doesn't matter! MuHahaHaha! So yeah, we enjoyed our day in East Coast while some people are in school studying! LOLOLOL! I'm so sorry, what just happened? That's not suppose to come out! ( yeah i lied :X)

So let talk about today. Me, Yilong together with some girls went on a "shopping" trip to Carrefour to get some groceries for the chalet in time to come. We reached that place and in the end, we bought more of our stuff rather than the stuff for chalet. LoLx! We ended up not getting food for the BBQ yet too! LoL... oh i got myself hotdog buns! Who want some? :)

We went for dinner and bla bla bla bla... LoLx...lazy to type anymore elaboration on what did we do le! LoL..then we went home le lo! LoLz! ohhhhh....wait. I need the toilet now! Like NOW! Be Right Back!

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oKays bacK! hee hee.. SO! im currently blogging! like ya! oh man..i have nothing to blog alreadY! BUT BUT! there's one more thing i must not do.. and that is... GOING OUT ALMOST EVERYDAY! oh my god...my wallet is like so dry and skinny now laaaaaaaaa! sob sobx! anyone wants to adopt a boy or maybe hire a male-maid? LOL. IM JUST KIDDING!! LAR LAR LAR LAR!! =.=" LoLz.. i guess i'll let my retarded-ness stop here. hahas! cya around peeps! :)

oh damn..

2006-03-20T16:37:00.000+08:00

hello people! long time no...SEE o.o" it has been so very long since our graduation rights? i really miss all of you.. SERIOUSLY! LoLz.. There are just so many things happening in my life in the near past and till now... i wanted to share all those to blog readers..but there this behaviour named Laziness in me telling me not to.. Oh wells! but i told "Laziness" that im not going to listen to him ( at least not for this entry! :] ) i Know there are quite a number of blog readers reading blogs right? well here is mine! i will try to update it as often as i can.. no matter how short it will be...and i will make sure you guys are entertained alright?! *evil grins* Relax...its not something that's explicit...but its just something that you might not want your parents know you are reading... MUHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHA! So please come visit me ( this blog) without your parents standing behind you alright?
OKAY! lets start...but before that..i would like to bring all your attention to a guy name DESMOND PEH - CUM - AH BENGS. Its not that he committed robbery or what so ever.. BUT he committed DEADLY crime! He always BULLY ME!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!!! And because he is a super resourceful ( he found my blog without anyone telling him the link)... and currently gonna read my blog...means.. i'm gonna write in my best of the best english possible..although it might appear to be Kindergarden standard..but ya! i tried oKAY! dun you dare laugh Mr PeH!

*music before news starts*

Today at News 17 ( sorry i just love 17), Robbery at Hougang mall, * Desmond's picture appeared*, If anyone out there see this evil man, please do not call the police. Call the Mental hospital instead.
Mentally unstable patient went crazy after seeing some guy named Yun Ho in DBSK in Singapore and attacked one of the staff, *Jasmine's picture appear*.
Girl attempt to commit suicide after knowing a lot of guys are woo-ing her, * Chee An's picture on a bridge appear*.
Boy rapes a girl in the bushes in Australia, *Darrell's picture appeared*

Now for the latest Juicy gossip news ever!
*music rolls*

On 17th March, 17 00pm, at street 17, A Boy name Edric celebrated his grandest birthday ever. It was his 17th birthday. Invited Fisherman Spears, Devilina Jolie, Brat Pitt, Beyond-say, Robber William and some other top super stars and models. It was a wild wild party by the pool, cocktails were served and they were having a feast of a life time there! Man, wished i was there.

Now for the sad reality fact that i just recieved from my friend at 5: 21 pm. Mdm Mashuda from our school died. It was a suicide. It was her burial on Saturday. Lets all pray for her peace and may her watch over us in the heavens. I heard from a reliable source that this year, our teachers from our school is very stress. What is it i do not know. Is it the students? Or is it the results? Are we, the graduated students, partly at fault? Or have the standard in our school decreased greatly since our graduation and our dearest principal is desperate for students of our school to work hard? She is a great teacher. Let us all now pray in silence for her departure from us. It's a great lost for our school, and for us.

Okays. After that paragraph, I think life is very unpredictable. People deal with stress everyday, everytime. I may not be dealing with stress now because it's still our holidays, but people still do share their stress and experience with me. I do feel the stress in them. Okay here is something from me.

1) Think of a way to relax yourself. For me, playing games with music on is the greatest relaxation ever.
2) While/ after relaxing, think of a way to solve the stress you are under. I know saying is easier than doing, but try okay?
3) Never ever think of giving up. NEVER.
4) Don't even think of suicide.
5) Stay happy. No matter how stressful you are, a smile always works.
6) If you can't be happy, tell me. Or come to my blog if it's updated. I will make you smile.

Long break.

2006-02-08T01:53:00.000+08:00

hEYa people! it have been long since i've updated my blog and im very sorry ya? so now i guess there will be only a few who would visit my blog to check if i've updated? or there will be none? haha! This is the first entry since we entered year 2006. I started the year with dark, suffocating clouds above me, together with the fierce thunder and violent gail, it was prepared to vent all the energy within it on me. When it started, i was most disappointed in myself for shattering and not put through the test. After some time, with help of my dearest friends, I picked myself up and pushed through the storm. Together, hand in hand, heart to heart. The anger in the storm have simmered down and rainbow stretching across the clear blue sky had once again, fill the emptiness in me with warmth and happiness. I sincerely thank all my friends for giving me support when i needed the most. Even those who have not, I'm really thankful that you are my friend. Really! :D To hell with unhappiness and sorrow. And a Toast for the warmth and happiness. FEEL THE LOVE!!! MUAHAHAHA! LOlz...im crazy~! =X oh most of us are underage for alcohol. LoLz!

This year is the year of the dogs! Will the "underdogs" all rise to become known to people? Or will the prosperous "snake" be in luck this year? After much observation of the zodiac reading from the TV, i'm pretty sure that this year the Snakes will be receiving the most luck and success. And coincidentally, WE, "snake-owners", are getting our O level results this year! oh my god! and its only 2 days away! The pressure is high and everyone are so nervous to even sleep. Even if we do, we will be having nightmares of failing ( TOUCH WOOD! gosH!) our subjects. Some people might've know that dreams/ nightmares are the opposite of reality. I really have no idea what would be the facts. I've heard from a friend. "Expect for the best, Prepare for the worst." I think it is so true. However, can i really expect for the best when i think i haven't done enough in preparing for the exam? It's now over and our results are set. There will be no more change. I can't be crying over spilled milk, can i? Well..if i use vacuum cleaner to suck up all the milk and pour it into the cup again, i could! LOLz.. Oh LooK at the time! It's 2 :20am now! oh my god...gotta work tomorrow...Gonna sleep! Nights peeps. Oh by the way...the english used in this/all the entry might sound weird..sorry for that ya? Cos' i have serious problem with english.. LOlz...woopz!

WAH!

2005-12-09T02:06:00.000+08:00

YO PEOPLE! HERE I AM BACK AGAIN TO BLOG!!!! MAUAHAHAHAHAH! got miss me marhS? haha...well who know right? haha..so many things have happened since O lvls...and alot people changed as time goes on. New friendships and cliques are formed as time passes by, too. Bond are pulled closer each time we go out. So there are actually change around me, including change in me. So how have all of you been? Working? Looking fo jobs? im missing the days that we had during our school time...walking around making noise during the change of period...and laughing away like nobody's business...hahas..so cooL...Time had past us by so quickly that we bearly notice. It the 4th year in our school now and we are all waiting for O' level results. Remember the time when we were in Sec one...alone, maybe with a parent, walking into a midst of strangers. Unknown to the environment that you are in but looking around, so curious about the new faces that you see. How about Sec 2? promoting up from Sec 1 as a whole class as more friendship and bondings are formed. Teasing our form-teacher and making fun of some girls and guys. Im sure sec 3 could be memorial too. Its just last year. Promoting up from Sec 2, not as a whole class, some as fallen angels who have failed the test. Nonetheless, the bonding for 2 years are not broken, not for a few at least. More new faces appeared once more in our life and its our job to farmiliarise them. Communicating with each other, making new friends. How about the recent year? Sec 4. We were all up and facing the Big O in our lives. Have we done well or have we done otherwise? I'm sure many do not know how they've done. I'm sad to announce that Christie have left Singapore for Indonesia and is not coming unless it's for certain reason. I'm sure many of us will miss her, as well as missing others in our school. Plans and outings have been organised by our Chairwoman- Nad dee. Please cooperate just by going for the plans? Because Nad dee might've made great effort to contact all of us, to inform us to go. Nevermind if you have no money ( if you need to pay). Money is something that can be recycled, but once friends are gone, they are gone. So i wanna say, i really miss you guys! hahas! i don't want to make the same mistake that i made 4 years ago during my sec one orientation. I did not take the numbers from my group mates and that guy name David who took charge of us and took good care of me when i had rashes then. I cried on the day when i realise how wrong i've been. i do not want to repeat the same mistake...Please! no tears for the happy Kid here oK? please? hahas! i better go now...its 2:42am now! hahas..nights people! good bye and take care always!

AiSH!

2005-11-08T23:09:00.000+08:00

We are now in the days of O levels. Making the big steps into our future. Its a test for our own destiny. Our own future. This is the start from a end. Secondary school is coming to an end soon. AND tomorrow is my english and physics exam! OMFG! here i am blogging away. GOSH i sure am relex about tomorrow's exam...NO im not! im actually panicking (although i seem like im not). I have no confidence in SS and i'm unsure about whether i will pass my math. i'm having some bad times nowadays. No. not me only. All the O level takers. I'm having alot of moodswings for the past few days and i don't know why. Is it because of friends again? I don't know. I can't do anything either can i? I've fell into silence at night, and only at night. It had been happening to me for the past few days. I don't want this to happen. Not now, at least. For numeral times, i can sense the loneliness in me. Maybe it's just that? I don't know, again. My right arm is feeling very weak now. Got tA go! hahas...cheers people! Maybe i can't be happy, but i will not make people around me be the same as me. So i will make them smile and laugh. I hope. =) good luck people for O levels! heex! smile always! *grins* OMFG English and physics is just tomorrow! and Geog is on thursday! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH haven't study arH! heLP! ~.~ bye peeps!

Confused again

2005-10-27T12:39:00.000+08:00

Why does it always have to be at a time of emergency? Things always happens when it's a time for me to conentrate on my study. Studying History is not enough. The same old problems will arise eventually again. So what is the point to study history when mistakes DO repeat itself? Time and again, I'm tired of everything. Tired of bothering, tired of speaking, tired of living. I felt like dying. For real. Why should i even bother speaking when they don't listen? Why should i worry when they did nothing? Why should i care when they don't even know my existence? I never wanted this. Never. But do i have a choice? No. I wasn't given one. Here's something to think about. Will a person actually say, for example, " Yes, I'm not alright. I'm upset." when they are asked if they are alright? This is psychology. People often got misled by what a person says but not putting themselves into that person's shoe and feel what he/she is feeling at that moment. This has always been a person's perspective.

Next, is it really funny to tease a person? Again, a person's perspective. In the perspective of a person teasing, he/she will think it is fun and this act is often done with a friend. They would tend to laugh at people. There are some points people would tend to laugh at more often. Here are some.
1) Size of a person
2) Height of a person
3) Action of a person
4) Appearance of a person
5) Characteristic of a person (not that much though)

I admit that it is some sort of self entertainment to laugh at people, but have we really thought about how others will feel? In the perspective of the "victim", he/she will feel hurt, upset and curious about what people will say about them. Worst scenario, they know they are talking about them but don't know the content of it. As time pass by, the "victim" will tend to have thousands of scars, all heavily carved onto his/her heart. Leaving him/her with low confidence and pain, not willing to speak up in the future, not willing to be seen. Is this what we call fun? Is this really entertainment? As i thought over it, it's kind of sadistic don't you think? Laughing at a person's pain.

The problem still lies with us. Is there no other form of entertainment that would interest us as much as how teasing people would interest us? I have no time for all these talks and stuff. My time is up and O levels draws near, day by day, hour by hour. I've wasted enough time in my life and i'm not going to waste one more year repeating what i've done this year. I won't and i don't want to. I hope that my english is ok in this entry. I have to work on my english before it is too late to regret. Before i fail my O level. "Work towards my goal." Will it really work? Have i really put in enough effort? I doubt so. i read through one of my testimonials and came across one phrase by my friend. " Study hard and study smart." I did study hard but did any of the infomation go into the empty space in my head that we call brain? I have no intention in letting history repeat itself (my geography). However, the question is, will it repeat? I can't alter fate but i definitely can stop this part of history from repeating itself. Alright. I think that is enough blogging for today. Alot of things have been disturbing me from my concentration. Too much. I have to settle them one by one, by myself, for it is only me who can solve this mental obstacle in me myself. Thanks for reading my blog, and thanks alot for listening. Bye and good luck for everything. Especially to all O level takers. [For darrell, good luck in your packing. =X]

Ouch. hurts

2005-10-26T13:22:00.000+08:00

What have i done?
Am i wrong to be me?
Criticism are everywhere.
Take them positively
Or swallow their negativity?

Everyone wears a facade.
They can be good to you now
Next stabbing you in the back.
One cannot be trusted
Lest you will be betrayed.
Ignored when not wanted.
Called up when needed.
What am i?
Not a servant,
Not a slave.
Just a desperate person,
I guess.

I've tolerated enough.
Being manipulated.
Being criticised.
Yet i did nothing.
I thought they've changed,
For the better.
No. They are back.
No. They are always here.
Always around me.
All geared to attack.

It angered me to hear
It pains me to feel
It shattered me to see.
So what am i to do now?
Do I not see it now?
People come and go.
Why am i bothering so much?
A word.
That is all i need.
Friends.

I've seen how worthless kinship are.
A word or phrase,
And poof it goes.
I have no intention of letting go.
Yet are they holding it tight?
Some do. Some don't.
It is affecting me.
Too much for a sixteen year old.
Too much to take,
Too much to worry.
Can i not care?
Can i not bother?
Do i have a choice?

No words can describe my sufferings
For it is too much to be spoken of.
No one will understand.
No one must know.
i wished for that.
I wished to take them down myself.
They don't owe me nothing.
I wished i would be less pathetic.

Love really does hurt.
Friendship hang victims in suspense
Family gives both support and problems
School gives work and future
Criticism helps make a better person,
Or destroy one.

dum dee dum dee dum..

2005-10-24T23:32:00.000+08:00

yo!...came back after a longgg break....did anyone miss me? hahahas...! im just kidding! hahas...who would right? LoLz....anyway...i just finished watching American's Next Top Model ( my future is it)...SO COOL!!! Naima won!! woohooO! *cheers* i love her laaa! GOSH! Kahlen was equally nice! DAYUM! i love them both laaa! geees...Kahlen got baby face....SO CUTE!! Naima is edgy! omg! I LOVE THEM CAN?! yikes..im all over models now....i wish i could be one too..but don't think that is possible liao lo! hahas! i wanna be one lo!!! waahhhhh...lolz....they all look so dam professional lo! kaooozzzz.....i wanna look professional oso!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...i tink im gonna go crazy soon..i hope i can dream abt Naima and kahlen! wahahaha....professional! omg! i admire them siaa! =) hahas....i can like so "dream-on" in becoming a model right? hahas...i noe la...hahas...ttz y i not so bhb go spread arnd oK...LoLx....but yea..i wanna be one..so only ppl reading this will noe lo! hahas..woopz! this is a secret (my fooT!) that you all must keep o!!! LOL! woopz! ppL! im outa time to blog! Next time k? when my bro not in..hahas..i will blog a long one...about MY modeling career...and no im not copying the person you are thinking ppl....it happens that it became my interest to like models ok....so everyone can have the same likeness too ok!! hahas...i can be a psychiatrist liao lO! hahahas...okay! ppl..i go liao! till next time! BUAI BUAI!!! tata! ciaoz! sayonara! anneong ikaseiyo / anneong ikaeseiyo!! hahahas!! dumm dee dumm dee duM! byes! BTW!! GOOD LUCK FOR O LVLS PPL!!!! WUHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! (especially for me...i'll need it) LOlz...

Don't. Just Don't

2005-10-17T02:32:00.000+08:00

"Don't Start if you can't End."
"Don't End if you can't Forget."

Forget if you must.
Love if you desire.
Love hurts.
What can i say?

Pressure is high
Blood is thicker than water.
Don't ever fight
Not with your loved ones.
Everyone ends up hurt.
Here's an advice
I have no wish to let history repeat itself
Don't cry in silence
The pain is excruciating.

People dealt with stress with their own ways
Be it in school or at home.
Some dealt with it alone, silently.
Some dealt with it with others.
I took it silently. Not sharing.
Who will know if I suffered?
Who would care?
If not for my friends,
I am no one.

I cried silently on my own.
Letting it out quietly.
Forced out of childhood
Brought to torment.
Obstacles surrounded me
Attacking me when they have a chance.
I fought and defended.
Yet i lost. They've got me.
I wished for death
They gave me torment.
I tried to endure,
More kept coming at me.
Guess death is my only choice.
My organs are corroded with deep sorrow
My heart is pierced by the cold sharp pain.
Take me away.
Free me.
Let me roam around.
Don't. Just Don't
Keep me in the dark chamber
you called heart.
Don't insult me with the word
Love.

i dun wanna talk abt what problems im facing...becus itz just too much to list dwn. really...i feel like dieing..darrell if u are abt to make sarcastic remarks, dont..im telling u not to. plz not now. if if you all wanna noe what im facing, read the crap above. so ya..thats about it. good luck for o lvls people. bye.

2005-10-13T23:08:00.000+08:00

Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low
URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

LOL!! im normal? hahas...lalalalalala....im not tt narcissistic after alL! lalalalala.....go visit the test ya? hahas...ttz it for today...dun wanna push the previous entry down...wanna let ppl read.. =)

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2005-10-09T03:28:00.000+08:00

GOSH! i cannot believe it. I'm finally free! Free from torture! Just can't stand the critism he used. So what if your english is good? So what if your literature is more superior than mine? At the very least, i know what i did and i tried.So what if your parents are rich? So what if they can afford good tuition teachers? What give you the right to criticise people's english? We all are meant to learn. No one is born smart and intelligent. My essays are lousy. Ya, so what? At LEAST i'm trying to improve.I'm not TRYING to pretend that i can write essays. I'm improving myself. You think i'm as shameless as you as to take your own result and boast around? I did not ask you to read. You TOOK it and read. I think you have short term memory. See a doctor. Your parents can afford it. Mdm Rozainah is kind enough to mark and give us a full scale of our weaknesses. She meant us good. You? To laugh at us. oh, and since when did i ever said u were my best friend? get the facts right. I said a friend. No best involved. You don't fit to be one too. You said you never take me as your best friend? Yet you said yourself my "best friend" and said i am vulnerable. Does that mean that you are contradicting yourself? I'm not as vulnerable as you think i am. You don't have the slightest idea who i am. You actually claimed that you are my best friend? Geees, and i thought your skin is already thick enough. Well if you actually found your best friend, good for you. Cos' i think there are none in our school that are smart enough to be your friends anyway, not to mention best. Must a best friend always do what you want? Must they be servant for you? This is what you called "best friend"? Well, you have no idea what friends are. They aren't servant nor are they slave. I do agree what you said. " No friendship is permanent". well, thats because you don't treasure them. You have absolutely NO respect for them at all. Again, we are not your servants in case you didn't notice your majesty. You told me to take the worksheets for you. You ordered me to. Just because you wanted to give me the english papers, doesn't mean that i owe you anything. I'm not obliged to do what you told me to. Not even a thank you when i passed them to you. gosh where is your manners?

You always want people to pity you. Sympathise you. Have you thought of others in the first place? You are too self-centred. You only befriend smart people ( no offence here if ben's friends happens to be reading). Keep it in mind. You are in our class. Doesn't make you stupid too? Well obviously. You did not top all the subjects and scored the best in our class. Thats make you more stupid than some of us. I'm not saying i'm smarter than you but think over it. To think that you asked me to stop my sarcasm in the past when you yourself are far more sarcastic than me. Your ego just raised to the top when you knew that you scored better in your exam than previous. You are the rotten tree in the whole forest that make the Normal A / T people think that Express students are mean and egoistic. You kept boasting about your english. WE got you the first time. You are all out to criticise me when you found out that i did badly. So PLEASE, don't say that i don't fit to be your best friend or what so ever your "superior" english says. That's disgusting. I admit that almost the whole class didn't like Marcus, but what give you the right to criticise him when you are far far far more egoistic than he is? Keeping in mind that you only won him in english and lit.

Now for lit. I know you have good tuition teachers, good links with smart people. but hey, i don't have them. I depend on myself and fortunately maaran in lit. While you depend on others to give you good grades. Thats kind of cheating isn't it? So try doing everything yourself without anyone's help. Will you do as well? i doubt so. Go on. Ask your "friends" to read my blog. Criticise my english. I don't care. I publish poems for people and friends to read. Not rotten tree. You can criticise me as to have bad grammer in the poems. Ya so? It's not going for competition or what. I know you did not get affected about what happened in the afternoon. Neither did I. You are not worth the space in my brain. Besides, i did not pretend. Please know the difference between pretence and tolerance.

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2005-10-07T21:27:00.000+08:00

Things happens whenever i come online. Terrible things. I really don't know what i should do anymore. Even my cousin despise me now. What am i suppose to do? Just because of a certain dumb game, he fell out with me. He is now using the sensitive words to attack on my wound. Say " Express students english i know very pro. I hate them." or maybe " Date and time you set. We will have a match after your O lvls" "You say i will get owned mah. Never mind one. We will see who gets owned when we play." . Why must someone use something so sensitive? As if we were looking down on them when we are not. At least not me. I have not, in any part of my mind, look down on them. Never. However, they will always like to use the words when things do not go well. Have i ever treat them badly or even despise them or raise my head up high when i see them? No. I hate it.

Heres the matter. It all started when my cousin wanted to learn the hero that have defeated him in that game called, Dota, time and again. He also happen to know that me and my brother know how to use it. He asked us. My brother taught him other characters, but i think he did not teach him that hero that he wanted him to. He asked me. I said, too, that i can teach you other characters but not that hero. No answer. Then he called me. We were talking about the game and the charater that he wanted to use most. We were still talking about it when he started questioning me about it. I thought, okay maybe i will teach him the basic of using it. There i was teaching him how to use it. I took the time to explain to him although he did not understand most of it. When he kind of understood, I told him that if you do not use it with skills, the hero will still be a lousy one. I even taught him at which circumstances he should cast the hero's spell on his opponent. Then i told him that try not to "feed", because it might cause you the game. He got a little aggressive saying that Am i thinking that he is dumb? I knowingly said yes because i thought he would see it as a joke. Apparently not. He thinks i'm looking down on him. He set up a challenge. He asked me to gather my friends that played dota and play against his friends. With his arrogant attitude, i suddenly have mine out, too. He was talking about me seeing him as a total newbie to the game and not knowing that he knows other characters and also good at it too. He kept repeating that what i see that day was just that he did not know how to use the hero and became a newbie in that hero. I did not answer. Then he asked my whether my phone is on incoming call free basis. I said no and suggested we hang up. We did.

After a few mintues, he started a chat log with me on MSN. Again he repeated that he is not a newbie in the game and asked me to get my teams ready by the date that i have not set. i don't intend to. He told me that his friends, whom he said to be at the lan shop everyday, are allowed not to go to school and study. I replied : " Your friends don't need to go to school my problem is it? They don't want to study their problem la. My problem meh?" Then he changed subject. Then he kept having the same repetition ordering me to get the team ready. And see who will "own" who. He then said something that made me blew up. He actually reprimanded me saying:"If me don't want to teach me then don't teach la! I nvm one." I'm just thinking at that time, then what the fuK have i been doin the pass half an hour trying to explain the hero to him?! Yes i blew up. I told him:" I already taught you how to use the hero and now you say i don't want to teach you!? WTF!? FUK OFF LAR!!!" That's the end of our conversation. A few seconds later i saw his msn nick saying that i blocked him on msn, when i did nothing of that sort. He went offline himself and scolded me. Then i thought to myself. Have i done wrong? Never mind, just apologise. i sms-ed him to apologise. What have i got in return? A adamant cousin of mine replying about the challenge again. I told him a friendly match will be fine, but not a challenge. He kept on with his chanting about the challenge that he set for me via sms. After the third sms which i apologised again, he did not reply anymore.

Have i really done wrong? Have i lost a cousin just like that? I don't know. I really don't know. Anger is building up in me as i blog when i am thinking whether i am really wrong. At the same time, sorrow and pain guarded the door to my true emotion. What am i feeling now? Should I just accept that dumb challenge of his? What if i lose to him? I'll be feeding his ego. I can't trouble my friends. They have their own to worry about. I have my studies to worry about now. I've no time for this. Yet, I'm caring so much in losing a cousin and adding on to a enemy. I've had too much trouble to worry about. Must I really take on all the obstacles before i can finally be enlightened and released from my torment? I definitely do not want to avoid the problem, but at the same time, i do not know how to deal with it. Is this The Oath i must take for the comfort i'm looking for? I'm left with questions un-answered.

Don't Leave Me Hanging In Mid-Air.

Apology i gave,
Revenge i get.
Relationship go hay-wire,
Leave it or,
Mend it?
Either ways,
It will leave painful scar.
Why Have I being so weak?
Have I no mind of my own?
Death is now one of my choice.
Yet it is not an option,
Nor is it the solution.
I have to stand strong.
Alone. Un-disturbed,
By the cruel reality,
Of the society.

Suprised ----> PANIC!

2005-10-04T19:07:00.000+08:00

oh wells...what can i say now? my prelims results are out. and i'm very very sure that i did not do well. How can i improve in all my subjects? especially my Humanities! holy cow.....i got F9 for both geog and combined Humans leh! how sad! i really want to do well in my AT LEAST one of my humanities!! i have to anyway....i have to aim for JC and see how is my result....Cos' it will make me work harder and push myself....and apparently i'm not pushing myself...why? because i'm using the computer and blog! lolz! don't know why, but this time when i have my prelims result back, i did not felt demoralised or what. In fact, i wanted to work harder. There is still a feeling inside me...telling me that there is still time to spare...but to think of it...i only have 28 days to do whatever last minute work. Like, practice english, practice maths, memorise geography, memorise SS, practice Lit....there are just too many to do...not enuff time! i think i better go off liao lO! cus.....i very scared O lvl fail! i really dun want to stay behind for one more year! HELP MEEEE!!!! ANYONE!? EEEK!!! >.<" i tink i go le behx! thanks for reading...and please leave a tag msg over at the right? thanks! heehee! tata!

Anime CraZe!

2005-10-02T02:52:00.000+08:00

heya ppl! suddenly at tis time felt like blogging! omg....i just finished Final Fantasy 7 : Advent Children. itz is so dam nice!!! omg....no wonder so many ppl went crazy over it...now i noe why!!! im oso gonna be crazy over it too!! wahaaah!! they ALL dam zai laaaa....wahahahahaha....final fantasy : advent children ROX!!!! seriously! itz recommended!!!! it really rock!! the images are really good...the story line is dam good...the characters are dam blardy nice and the moves are the best!! itz very nice!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...next time go watch again....they are all pros!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhh......really laaaa.....wished i were the main character....he is so dam pro oso!!! his speed holding a big big sword is really admirable!!! even the bad guys....they are oso VERY pro!!! i mean...GEEE! wat can i say abt the show....URGHH!!! i seriously wish tt it was longer in terms of duration...there is a girl in there....SUPER CHIO AND CUTE!!!...dam powerful oso....he can actually win a guy siaaaa......omG~~ PRO LA!!! omg omg....wish i could date her...hahas!!!!! woopz!!

after much excitement over the show i just watched.....omG~~~ im still very excited over it~!!! eeek!!! no sleep liao tonight...LOLz....oh i forgot....itz 2:40am in the morning...and here i am blogging away....abt how excited am i after watching such a wonderful show....wahaahahahaha!! i tink i can write 3 compositions abt how i feel abt the show and the excitement....OMG~~~hahahas....heres the gradings...
1) Action : 40/40
2) Characters : 40/40
3) Story line : 20/20

HOLY COW!!! iTZ JUST A PERFECT SHOW!!! gees...oh ya...there is tis part tt show the viewers tt teamwork is the way to success.....seriously...the main character's teammates actually tooK turns in different heights to throw him up the sky to fight the monstar!!! omG~ dam prO! no wonder i like anime so much....Final Fantasy make me love anime even more!!!~~~ wahahahahahahahahaa......waaahhh..tis blog entry like i kept talking abt the show...Lolz...nothing abt my day right? hahas...nvm laaa....cus i dunno which day to write....01 Oct or 02 Oct....LoLz....if 01 Oct...Happy children's day ppl! and if itz 02 Oct...TOO BAD!! children's day over!! LoLz...woopz...evil right me? hahas... lalalalalalala....aiyo..looK at the time now...time to sleep.....while tinking abt FF7!!!! waaahHH!! i love tt show!!! nitex everyone! tata! ciaozz!~ oh btw....sry abt the previous post...hahas...wrong colour for the font..hahas! =X

TirEd siA!

2005-09-29T21:57:00.000+08:00

MuHHahaH! Due to popular demand....i haf came back to blog! muahAhah! Lol...ttz just PURE crap! hahas... =X anyways....ya...i came to blog...lolz...kinda tired nehx...today after the last paper (thank god!)....we went swimming lo! hahas....but after we swam for like 40mins...we received news frm cynthia, jess and shannon tt we haf to go back sch and take our foto shoot(cus we skip it)...wah we were like...WAH!!! den no choice...it was 12:17pm and we are required to reach at 12:30!!! omg right?den we no choice....went to change....wif our wet trunks and swimming costume inside....dam wet....LOL! =P we went there....waited awhile...and tooK 3 shots and left!....3 shots! but me, yang and elbert went to apologise lo...>.<" i am standing at the 2nd place liao! MuahAH! im the second tallest guy in class!!! shi yao taller den me.. >.<"" so nice to suan watson they all! LOlz.... woopz! =X ohhh den after tt we went swimmin again..hahas...cool aye? ahahas.....den after little little tings...we went shopping....SHOPPING!!?? omgg~~~ so tiring~~ ttz y i lazy to type more....omg i just typed more....omg i typed more again.....wah again! ahahs....LAME! =P aiya....i tink i go le bah...cus really tired...oh btw! we getting result tmr....science paper 1st i tink...omg~~~ hope i can AT LEAST pass... so sian lehx!~ so good luck ppl! for the result tt yet to come....TO THE YEARS AHEAD! omggg...siao liao! hahahas....so ya...chao ppl! tata! cya! sayonara!

OMFG! WarT tHe F**k

2005-09-19T17:55:00.000+08:00

Once again...im sick and tired once more....had chinese today...the paper was oK...maybe is becus i alrdy noe tt they are taking the june o lvl paper result if i did badly for prelims....so i secured a b4 alrdy...maybe itz tt bah..but still..i tried...i dunno if itz my best or not...i did it the way i did for o lvl....i dun even noe wat is my best and wat is not...wat is my best? when did i do my best? i dunno...i haf absolutely no ideas....the comprehension for chinese was so touching...i almost cried when i finish reading...i will if i did not tell myself tt i nid to answer the questions below....seriously..i almost cried....and after the paper....sumting tt made me almost lose control and cried in my classroom....(we had our exams in the hall btw).....ms eng was telling me tt i did the worse qns among the classes...and i tot she was kidding....but i kinda abit shock though....but after my papers are collected and released...i went up to her and asked....and she said...
"u really did the worse in all the 4 qns."
"i tink u better buck up in ur SS,
"if not u cannot pass humanities like tt"
"And i dun tink u can pass geog alrdy....10 marks qn and u onli gave me 2 lines"

When i heard her words....they just pierced thru' my heart and left my heart to bleed...i argued one sentence..."No lo, i wrote at least 5-6 sentence or even 2 paragraphs!" <--i was trying to act as my normal self as i was still bleeding....and the rest of the conversation...i was merely nodding my head....when i was accompanying Jam to find mdm roz...i was looking on the floor and not dare to say a word...but Jam kept consoling me....when we were in the classroom...and Jam went toilet...i collapse on the chair and lay my head dwn onto the table...i was tinking over and over....and tears was arnd my eyes....for the 1st time in class....i seldom cry in sch or in class one...cus im usually crazy and smiley...and den i told myself tt i will not cry in class! if i wan to...cry at home! or dun cry at all! den the tears recedes...Jam was back and he started styling my hair wif wax (i lazy style liao)....and i told myself....get back to ur normal self and be cheerful! ppl here dun owe me anything...dun sulk! so i kinda acted tt i was ok and went on smiling and chatting.....................................................................

I just dun wan to let Ms Eng or anyone down anymore! i wanna work hard! alot of ppl haf high hopes on me! i cant let them dwn! i haf their trust tt i will do well and i will and i must do well and let them see tt i can really do it! i was really demoralized earlier on...thankfully there are my frens....Special thx to Jam, Mich and Nicholas (not in our sch)....thx alot! thx for supporting me and consoling me! thx for pushing me! i seriously hope tt i will work hard and finally excel in my work! i really does! As for darrell...if u wanna go overseas...just go....but if u can stay here for one more year but still go after 1 year...i tink staying here for one more year is better...at least u can spend a little more time wif ur frens...like me....LOlz...oh and and...dun forget any of ur frens....namely...ME again...LoL!! xP~ oh...and gar meng...hahas....so long liao i still rmb his name sia! hahas.. =X so ya..i hafta go now ppl...so long and bye bye! tag more often k? and i will try to blog more often too!

Time will heal all wounds
Leaving scars on it.
Pain will recede
Result will concede
Determination is tested
Lose the game
Lost your aim.
Goals are shattered
Dreams are dashed
Never give up
While you still can
Pick up what u shattered
Chase back what ran by
That is when
You truely won,
Yourself.

WEary

2005-09-17T02:59:00.000+08:00

yO peoPlE! coughs...having sore throat lately...hmmmx...dunno why..im dehydrating super fast recently oso..just sitting there will make me dehydrate in a few mins...is it signs on the arrival of my death? LoL! CHOI! hahas...touch wood arh! hahas...anyways...having prelims now le....english and geography paper gone liao...i so screwed up in both the papers la! how arh? i disappoint my teachers le laaa~cannot cannot! *shake head* and now i might even die for choking on my own saliva.......cus my throat really hurts..hahas...i was talking to some one tt day....although he was someone i knew frm frenster not long ago...and although he might be busy the next day..he very busy wif his work...but i tink wat he said is true...no use complaining when itz already over. And why bother wasting time complaining when u can use the time to do wat u are supposed to do...for my case...study...hmmmx...i came up wif a phrase..."Quit whining and Start working" maybe im just being a nuisance to him or sumting...hahas...and i am always a nuisance to everyone...hahas...i just wanna stop being so crappy...sum ppl might accept...but most cant...

i never wanted to be like tt....but i just...cant control? hahas....aiyo...how ah? maybe i huld be more mature...mature up abit!! hahas....wells...now i cant tink of all these things..i haf my exams to worry abt now...hahas...but i hope i seriously did not disturb him...haizz...look at the time...itz so early nowww....hahas... @.@ played the whole day today sia! kao! din even study anyting..i tink my prelims no hope le laaa... >.<"" but due to the promises i made to the people...i will continue to work hard! acheive my goals! lolz...ttz the composition i wrote in my english paper 1...LOlz...i haf a tiny bit of confident tt i migt pass geog...but might fail oso nehx! dunwan!~~ bu yao~~~hahas...i tink i go sleep le la...cus i haf a habit..bad habit...i will be very hungry when it is at the time like now...2-3am++....very hungry now lehx! *growls* my face oso peeling skin....lolx...but after i wash my face..al clear le...lolz! nid to go tan again lE! after prelims behx! *grins*

I call upon the angel death
Hear my cry
and you will try
Feel my wrath
and taste the pain
Pass the Oath
and you will gain
Evil shall pay
As i will say
Burn in h3ll
and melt the cell
Feel what you have caused
And my heart dissolved

Absolute Zero

2005-09-11T19:22:00.000+08:00

hey yo.! hmmx...1st of all...letz get on wif the table...according to looks then Personality.

1) Nellie - 6/10 , 5.5/10
2) Tay Min- 5/10 , 3/10
3) Darrell - Failed for both

hmmmx...oK...i get it...hahas...im just PURE...PEE-YOUR...eviL! lolz...unkind + ugly...lolz...i can go film horror show liao...but the real thing...no special effects or scripts..hahas....coughs...i tink i'll just study and leave....im not gonna talk..i hope...cus im talkative by nature...eeeK! hahas...so sian...suddenly...im tired once more...itz not like im not tired the 1st time...itz not like im the onli one tt is tired....ppl are getting tired of my nonsense right? yea...me, too, got tired of myself actually...tired for being so god daM conscious of my own looKs and being nonchalent of things arnd me...Im really tired and im sure u all are too....of me.

Still...life hafta move on...study at my fullest....and move on to upper lvl of education...and not care abt my looks anymore...i haf to learn! alright...i suck...LoLx..aiyo..i shuldn't be saying tis...i hafta study and STOP STOP STOP being narcissistic....KABOOM! die! lolz...yikes...im crazy..once more..hmmx...maybe itz just wat happened to me before tt made me like tt...alright...i tink i'll stop everyting....when will i ever learn? yaawwnnnzzzz.....i hafta experience the cruelty of reality myself...tt is when i will learn....watz wrong wif my brain? watz wrong wif my attitude? wat is wrong wif me? hmmmx...everyting! hahas...im turning autistic...im actually talking to my blog...hahas! aiyoo!!! TO H.E.L.L with the negativity....hahas...lets neutralise everyting bah...hahas....

looKs like i hafta study...or rather...finish my dnt....last 2 page...and im done once and for all....heeheex...now now...geog and maths...2 subject with top priority...LoLx...im a little biased... =X hmmmx....oh oh..i just realise...quite a number of my frens are becoming soloists...they tink tt they are....but are they? no matter how anti-social they are....i tink there are still sum ppl who cared...sum one who wanna be frenly....i wouldn't say i will be there all the time when u all nid me..but i will still try...so talk to me if u nid me? im just a few numbers away! yea...hahas...i nid help~ help help help...serious help... =X my studies again...hahas....aiyo..nvm..let me just get it right myself...i hope...hahas..hust too many tings happened nowadays...too much to handle...time to go le...hahas..i oso dunno wat to say oso liao~oh wait....i haf sumting....tt is...good luck for O' lvls ppl! and to myself too! hahas...and darrell...good luck for on coming exam! harhar...

I summon my brothers
I summon thy
Vanquish evil
In front of me

Confused!

2005-09-10T23:41:00.000+08:00

Once again..i'm here to say hi...LoLZ...haiz...i dunno..wateva i do..i cant seem to be enthusiastic....maybe the horoscope was right after all...im not gonna be enthu in anything until wed...and prelims is on wed! shIT! wat am i gonna do? im still wasting so much time slacking....in the hols...i dun seem to study anything...just maths and geog...ibut i tink i forgot most of my geog liao! means i wasted alot of time...OMG! how am i gonna do well in my prelims? how? how am i gonna improve? how?! i wasted too much time..i've not been productive...always not on task...slacks too much....HOW!? how am i gonna meet the promise tt i made to my frens? to my teachers? here are the promises i made....

1) Geography - Ms Eng : Distinction
2) Mathematics - Michelle and Mdm Sin : equal or less den B3
3) Combined Science ( Bio and Phy) - Jillian , Mdm Lung and Ms Lim : equal or less den B4
4) English - Mdm Rozainah : arnd B4
5) Chinese - CL teachers and myself : A2
6) DnT - Mr Leo : B3
7) Combined Humanities ( Literature and Social Studies) - Myself : A C6 dammit

If all of the subjects go smoothly and i acheive the lowest grade of wat i promised....i tink it will be less den 20...but how to get so good? to tell u all my result ( i dun wanna do tis but..) , i got a grade of 42 for mid year leh! how am i gonna jump from 42 to less den 20? i noe hard work can...but i cant seem to get it!! URGHH! tis is really miserable...wats can be more frustrating is that...my face is full of pimples and itz not goin down...it just totally crush my extreme low confidence to absolute zero....haiz...i m better off dead wif my studies like tt....aiyoyo....hahas...but still...hahas...still hafta smile always! i hafta welcome the in-avoidable (dunno how to spell..forget the word le) trouble wif a great big smile....no point sulking over it...and and...i hafta work hard! After reading Ms eng's letter....i very touched and really wanna get a distinction for her and ms nai...and ultimately...for myself! i hafta work xtra xtra hard.....3 times more den wat im doin now...or maybe more...wateva....just let me keep to my promises and not break any of them...i dun wan to be disappointed when i comes back and get my result...i wanna leave sch without regrets...i wanna leave sch wif a great big smile...and come back to sch sumday..not as a student of my secondary sch...but as an EX-student....i wanna come back and see my dearest form teacher as an EX-student...but b4 i can do all tt...i nid to WORK HARD now....and stop dreaming abt the things in the future....itz good to haf a goal...but goal without actions are just dream! fantasY! so ya...i hafta work hard! and together wif my classmates and frens taking o lvl tis year..."itz our final lap now" - quoted frm ms eng letter....i tink itz true....why are we studying for 10 years? make it 4...why are we slogging for 4 years in our sch? itz all becus of tis major exam...now..itz time to test wat we haf got in the past 4 years....all we nid to do now is to slog ur hearts out...and do well...i wish ALL of u and myself of cus..good luck for the coming O' lvl and do well in it...not too well k? cus later moderation go up den i die...LoLx....i wanna show ppl tt i can do well! and i WILL! i hope.. hahas...time for me to go off le peepz....hope we will do well in our exams.! GOOD LUCK! Now before i go...can i leave u wif another qn? or rather....RAting table...hahas...can all of you tt reads my blog pplz grade me in terms of -:

1) Looks : ?/10
2) Character/ Personality : ?/10

i noe itz dumb...but pretty plz? heeheex..plz tag the grades in my blog or just tell me in person....oh btw..plz grade me w/o tinking...cus i nid the truth?...hahas..currently onli one person gave me tt....i will make a table or sum sort abt the score....heres IT..

1) Nellie- Looks : 6/10
C / P : 5.5/10
2) Anyone wanna take tis place?

wowowow...i just realise...tis entry got alot of tables...LoLx...best of luck ppl! chao!

MiracLe?

2005-09-08T20:24:00.000+08:00

halo ppl! @.@...im suffering from a severe face problem and had not been sleeping for 2 days... my dark circles are really protruding (<--spelt tt way?) and PIMPLES are infesting on my face! wTF! shit larh! i dun dare to go out le lo...all so obvious...zzzz....im very tired oso...i nid to sleep...LoLz...i really nid sleep la~ hmmx... btw...im sry tt i din blog for so so so many days....but yea...was busy studying...i tink...but it feels like i've studies nothing...omg! dun tell me my effort gone to waste...hmmx..i studies geog and maths onli...and i onli studied the shallow part of the chapters...din really go in depth...im dead la! prelims fail liao lo! hmmx...im just worried tt i will disappoint the ppl tt i promised my grades...hmmx....aiya...im really tired...i cant think...im sry tt i din haf time to change my blogskin...but i will once i got the time and my mentality health back again....hahas...."itz girlish" by tze..."it suck alot, itz like the oldies", by darrell...anyone else more? hmmx..hahas...i tink i go le bah...but b4 tt...i will just leave u all wif a qn b4 i leave...."Is friendster full of scams ?"

URKS!

2005-09-04T12:26:00.000+08:00

Hi ppl...nice to blog here again...im kinda tired though..hahas...alot of things happened...mostly personal and private stuff...but MAINLY is becus prelims are coming...and im struggling my geog and maths and neglecting all my other subjects..i dunno how am i gonna study in one week...i heard from my fren( a 10 pointer who slacks alot) tt she studies 12 hours a day during the september hols. 12 HOURS LEH! omg...she woke up at 8am every morning...and sleeps at 11pm....and did tt consecutively...i was like..stunned....wahahas...i onli study for like...2 hrs? omg...and itz onli today and ytd..haiz..wat am i gonna do for my prelims? i really wanna do well! ahhh! ben got alot of "tutors" to teach him...wat haf i got? nothing....nono! not nothing...i haf my BEST FREN to teach me...and still alot of other nice peepz to teach me...hahas...maybe we could study together sumday? yes classmates? hahas...i studies geog today and ytd...i tink i wasted alot of time...shiet! im dead..but still...i memorised sum...hmmx..but i tink i forget a few liao...i got short term memory de leh! now day and night i nid to go tru in my brain the things i memorised...maybe i shuld go and study in the library more often..hahas...i wanna go study le la! cannot use com too much le...study...but must be on task too! OMG! ahhh..

i wished i was smarter...i wished i am more disciplined...i wished for better result...but like wat tt guy said: "Goals without Actions are just dreams, Actions without goals are sumting sumting....Goals with action are results that u want..." ttz wat i tink he said? LoLz...but i tink itz true...saying just isnt enuff....actions! boi...actions....hmmx...hafta be on task..and dnt is still bugging me...tmr...i will try to finish! ahhhh! aish! tmr got geog...i must listen le! cannot sleep! hahas...anyways...i go lo! bro ish back...good luck for prelims everyone! and those having promos...good luck too! wahahaha! bye! zai jian! tata! chaOs! sayonara! anneong ikaesayo! (WOAH mulit-lingo! woot woot!)

Pain In The ArsE~

2005-08-29T19:23:00.000+08:00

KoNichiwa! nice to see u all again..hahas...letz get on wif the entry..cus i dunno how much longer i can hold...tired nehx~ hahas...anyways...the day started at 12am...did i say i went to ben's hse and work our butts off for D&T? hahas...and i stayed overnight...we slept at 12+ and woke up at 3+am...we slept on different sofa of cus...hahas...den we continue working on our folio again..hahas...den we work till it time to go to sch den we change and went to sch...den i was sooooooooooo tired la~! got headache sia! den cannot walk properly...zzzz...den i actually felt oK in the morning...but arnd 10+..i very sleepy liao..den i told a few ppl tt i went to ben's hse and stayed overnight..and they actually asked me whether we did any "stuff" anot...i was like...WTF! if u all wished to do stuff...go do it den..dun ask me.."DUN JUST JUDGE A PERSON BY WHAT HE/SHE DID!" kao...get it clear dammit...i hate being malign of sumting tt i/ we didnt do......and i got really pissed wif my project..Lol..aiyo...kan sian le...den it was assembly...miraculously...i din fall alslp! wooo!! hahas...but i slept in geog class earlier...sry ms eng! >.<>

After English self-study time...i went for dnt...LoL..and u noe wat? me and alfred went in..put our bag dwn...and i heard Mr Muthu say.."alright, pack up now...we are closing" i was like...wah....so early...lolx...aiya...my temper getting worse...im so rude to my mom...shit...tink itz becus of me not having enuff slp...and having so much pressure weighing dwn on me so much...i really cant breathe...i nid help...i really nid help..im gonna cry soon...i cant cope wif the extreme pressure now...and alfred is helping me wif the Orthographic pictures..cus he finish alrdy...i haf 27 pages to rush in 2 days...i hafta work my ass off again tonight..i hope i can slp tonight..my dark circles are coming out...SHIT! oh ya...the following phrases are not directed to anyone...so plz do not take offence to tt..becus tt is just me being pissed wif the questioning after assembly and i wrote abt tt...

Boys are Scheming,
Girls are Wicked.
Men are Evil,
Women are Vicious.

what does those meant? solve it urself...just a general pointer abt the world.. =) i hafta go now b4 i seriously blow my top..becus im getting really pissed word after word im typing..sry guys...and gals...im just not right if i dun haf enuff slp...sry if i offended u..

Wuoooooooo.....Ahhhhhhhhhh

2005-08-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

OhaIyo GozaIimas! itz abt 10 days since i blog le..hahas...so sry ppl.. xP~ too busy wif...D&T and gaming..LOL! woopz mich...but mostly D&T...so no worries! hahas....so i shall get on to blogging...let me start wif yesterday's funni things and experience..ytd cass, ben and me went to watch "The Maid"...we bought the tickets and went arnd..den we went in...we all sitted comfortably and came the barker bois(RMB! BOIS!)...they were all sittin beside me...i was sitting in the deepest place and cass sat at the left side of me and ben was beside her...so...they sat down...and start talking to each other...i tot it was alright...but i heard them talking in a manner like..say...."very gentle"...den i dun care...bo chap...i sat there quietly...cass and ben oso very quiet...tink we are all getting rdy for the horror tt we are looKing forward to..i almost fell alsleep...my eyes were closing when the light suddenly turns dark....and a BUNCH of crazy bytches were screaming already when the lights are dimming...i was like WAT THE FOOK they screaming abt? like i said...crazy bytches...den got a few ppl shouted..."shut up la", "kao bei la" , "diam la" etc...

it started out to be quite oK in the 1st part of the movie..suddenly got 2 hands come out...den alot ppl screamed...i shook abit to the shock but din scream.. xP~ cass was covering her ears and refusing to listen to the sound...hahas...ben...i din notice...like the ppl in tt cinema....the bois beside me screamed...i was amused tt i sat there calmly...putting my elbow on the side and using my fist to support my face(bored manner)....den occasionally when the scary part came...i shook abit...i was high tide at the start of the movie...i was tinking to go to the toilet...but after i heard how vulgar ppl behind me was..i reconsidered...and sat down...i had actually hold my bladder truout the movie without even realising tt i nid the toilet...LOL itz 2 hrs of holding leh! hahas..now back to the barker bois....every now and den..they got scream...den there was one scene of the show tt the camera was shooting a kid's hand got turned 360 degree and a scene of the female ghost for a very long time...THEY WERE SCREAMMING LIKE GALS! all throughout the show...everytime they scream...itz like gals...and they are bois leh! they scream more feminine den the gals...LOUDER den the gals...i was like..OMG! lo...hahas...im more like surprised tt they scream like gals and was actually smiling when the ghost came out..LOL...they scream very long leh...kept screaming and screaming...den i turned and looK at them..they were sticking together! like how some gals will do...cluster together...maybe even hugging each other...i was like... WAH! @.@!! i was kinda luffing in the show...but i was thinking of giving respect to the show and the ppl inside ( although itz a show..u nv noe wat will happen!)...den i hold on to my luffter lo..hahas...

NoW into today's experience...Edison, Yilong, Jian How, Me, Kenny went out wif Ms NaI! our dearest god mother! LoL. :p we simply had alot of fun in east coast...we went to haf our lunch 1st..and of cus..before tt...i was late... LOL! woopz! :X after lunch...we went to east coast...and eat the cake tt ms nai bought..hahas..chocolate cake..but...after having one slice each...Kenny, Edison, Me, Yilong, Jian how ended up playing wif the rest...and Jian How got the worst result ever! his hair was full of cake! LoL! Me...mine was the shirt...yilong accidentally put in on my shirt...waaahhh...den the rest of the day i was haivng tis stain on my back..LoL...kenny din get any! but he was involved in the cake war! wah! not fair! Lol..edison had cake in his eyes! wahahhaha...eye candy? LoL...eye turn into sweet de...hahas...den ms nai was like...scream here and there and luff and luff...hahahahas...den we was like..wink here and there...and got abit of the cream onto our fingers and start painting ms nai's face...but abit only..hahas..we did all tt...but din get to take foto.. =.=" wasted..hahas..so fun laa...although i had the stain on my back! (did i say tt alrdy?) LoLx...we went to the shower's to clean up..i was the onli one who had to go half naked to wash the cream off my shirt...yilong helped of cus..LoL...

So bottomline- WE HAD SO MUCH FUN WIF MS NAI! wahahahaha...oh did i tell u all tt edison got a head scarf printed wif all the s.e.x positions? itz replaced wif the bones only..hahas..so funni...he oso got a choker..it is so nice la! watz more? both of the gifts are frm ms nai! wahahaha..so funni..hahas...ok now ppl..i nid to go bath and chiong D&T folio liao..scared cannot finish...hahas...die lo! hmmx...bye ppl~ hope u enjoyed tis entry..just to share wif u all my happiness.. =) buh byeee~

zZzzZZzz!

2005-08-17T19:17:00.000+08:00

heeeeyyyyyyaaaaa pppeeeepppzzzz....!! good day, good afternoon or good evening...wateva time u visit my blog...LoLx...kinda long since i blogged? hehe...i dun even remember when since i blogged...LoLX...anyways! im really tired recently...hahas...ytd i slept at 10 pm sia! woah! 1st time so early leh! today..nothing much happened...none tt will interest you all tt is..we had a talk in the morning by our principal...she was scolding us abt our mid year result and why SOME ppl din go for the self-study programme arranged for us...aiyo...den say we slack too much...and say tt other GOOD schs are going home at 5pm almost everyday and she even asked ms karvita to prove it! OMG! and said tt we went home at 4pm onli! omg....like shes said..they are frm good schs! gees! and..If she wan us to go back home at 5pm...sure! itz the effort you put in tt counts wat...the good schs students might be slacking and not working? At LEAST we did some of our work right? or why not they ban the subject D&T so that WE can concentrate IN OUR WORK!?? D&T still sucked as much la! Why must we compare to good sch? to motivate us in studying? well....they sure did...hahas...after tt i dunno y...but haf the sudden urgh to study? hahas...which made the purpose of the talk successful! temporarily...LOL!

nothing happened much tru out the day...alot of teachers din come...ms eng got sore throat...becus she shouted too much in our class...itz really bad leh...urghhh..nid to apologise...hahas...and the last period was english....ENGLISH! OMG! A summary test! abt orangutan...i din noe tt orangutans are facing extinctiong too...until i read the passage..hahas....dam..it was really tuff lo...i almost fell alslp THRICE while i was reading...so i cant really concentrate well leh! die...no confident at all...haha...and ytd was our bio test.. 10 chapters! OMG! damm!!! so tuff oso...but alot ppl in my class say itz easy leh...and they say they shuldnt haf studied so hard on it..wah liew...so smart leh! anyways...back to today...hahas...i Slept awhile during chinese remedial ( becus i nid to retake...WAAAHHH)...infront of mdm goh...WAHAHA! lucky she nv scold me...cus got sec 3s oso! if got scolded...so diu lian (no face)...hahas..

den when i reach home...my bro went for tuition...and ttz y i can blog today! LOL! still as tired though...hahas...maybe caring does hurt....maybe being nonchalent on the surface abt tings are bad...maybe the onli best way to care is to put aside every other things and put ur ur whole heart into caring...itz like love...u haf to gif it all...i cared for most ppl...i dare not say everyone....but i do it secretly...maybe u all must be thinking now...."you must be joking..a person like u cared?! gees!"...maybe becus im too shy or sumting...i just cant bring myself to talk to them...i cant be a joker and make ppl luff anymore...i haf to be serious...cus im losing my frens...im losing ppl who really cared for me...i do treasure them...but maybe i took them for granted...maybe i deserved to be treated like that...i did nothing but causing trouble and pain to everyone...im better off dead correct? BUt seriously..if u really wan sumting to NOT happen...itz will gradually happen...in a minority form tt is..like me...i dun wan anyone to hate me...but i noe sumone out there hated me to the core...i tried my best...really...maybe i just dunno how to talk..or persuade...i just wan them to forgive me...i really wan them back...but will they forgive me? i tink i've being insensitive enough...time to wake up...maybe they are the most precious "wake up calls" to wake me up...and like the ringing sound of the alarm...it faded of after u did sumting to it...pressing "buttons".. i just wan everyone to be happy...and not hate me...i did too much...now..i just hope that they will forgive me...

`WizO oUt`

ShiveRs

2005-08-13T00:50:00.000+08:00

HeyA ppl! im back to blog again...i hope itz not too long since i blogged..hahas...Im really really tired today...heres the schedule for the day...

7:30am- 10:30am Cross Country. (slept at 1 am and woke up at 6am.)
10:30am-12:30pm Breakfast and finding out our result for Mother Tongue.
12:30pm - 6:00om Work In D&T workshop (NOTE: no break for lunch but work continuously)

So ya...ttz my schedule for the day...letz start wif X country shall we? oK...at first it was fine in the morning...i met tong and long b4 going to "Mac Riche" (i noe i spelt wrongly) den itz like..we were waiting for the bus 157...and when it came, the bus did not stop for us! it went straight pass us! and the bus was full of our school's students...and there were ALOT of space left...im sure 4 or 5 ppl can squeeze up the gap...but nooo! the bus did not stop. yea...den we took the other bus no. which apparently i forgotten..haha...and we reach there...in time...haha...we din even know if we were late...cus mr kamil simply kept talking...and ignoring our presence...took our number tags (mine is 235)..haha...den we waited for our turn to run...u noe..the usual procedure...hahas..and when we started running...or shuld i say..walking? LoLx...Jian How, Long, Edison , Jia hao and me were walking at first...den Bing Quan came abt beside us...and we kept on walking...and sumting really hilarious happened...Jian How (a guy) saw a St. John member by the path and he shouted.."St. John! stomach cramp! got mensuration! u got mensuration pills anot?!" and he made those disgusting sound....LoLx...in front of all the senior boys and 1 of my favourite teacher...LOL! we were like...luffing our way in...den...Bing Quan and me manage to psycho Edison to run...becus this is our last year running...and we want at least a medal? LoLx...and true enuff...we ran...we 3 ran, leaving Yi long, Jia hao and jian how behind..LoLx... PS sia.. =X but anyways....during the running...the part above the stomach and arnd the diaphram part..hurts like mad! itz like sumting is eating it up...or even like sumone is stabbing on tt part...anyway...it just HURTS! LoLx..oh btw...i ran and got 101....top 100 gets a medal and i got a 101! 1 place behind 100! OMFG! Edison was 99, Bing quan was 100 and i was 101...i actually over took dem one..but they din count me as tt...URGHHH!!! nvm...itz onli a small token...hahas...

Nothing happened much during lunch today...just tt onli me and yilong were so nervous abt our chinese result...becus everyone arnd us had called and asked their frens in sch to check for them...me and long just wanted to see for ourselves...wif our own eyes to believe..hahas...so...the atmosphere was really tense and nervous for both of us...

After we knew our result (im not gonna disclose my result), all of us went straight to D&T! OMG! how boring is tt...after the devastating astonishment tt we suffered when we saw our result...so we simply did our D&T there..and we stayed for 6 hrs! OMG! yilong went hm soon after we enter...he had no business there oso...cus his a art student...LOL! =X 6 hrs! can u believe it!? i fell aslp on my acrylic when i was suppose to mark out tt piece...and i soon woke up...for no reason too...maybe just my instinct tt told me to wake up before my teacher comes...hahas...itz was very boring! but i manage to complete alot of small but specific part of my artefact...so on monday..i can touch up on abit of my project and essemble them...and "voah la!" itz completed..LoL...im hallucinating..cus i knew tt there is 80% chance tt it wun work...hahas...but still...i can explain it in my folio...hahas...

when i went home...my legs were like...gone jelly! wahahaha...cannot kneel down...if i kneel down...i wun be able to get up...haha....letz hope tt my blisters will heal quickly...hahas....i tink ttz all for today bah...cus im gonna study tmr wif jerome...hahas! hope i dun fall alslp while i am studying..hahas...GOOD LUCK PPL! for everyting u do....oh ya...bro! if u are reading tis...dun worry so much behx... ^.^ oh ya...thx for tagging too! hehex..but if im a disturbance...just tell me..i noe how to do...i noe when to get serious too...so dun worry abt it..hahas! =) Smile always!

`WizO` OuT`

Forgotten~!

2005-08-06T12:10:00.000+08:00

First of all...thx alot to ppl who cared...but plz dun sympathise me becus of this..just be normal...cus itz alrdy the past...letz not bring it up anymore ok? hahas...well...as usual...i haf nothing to blog abt bahx...hahas...today was quite a day bah..i was playing the whole day! oMG! i was planning to do maths papers....but apparently i haf no discipline at all to do so...i was thinking tt after i finish tis match and i will go do...but match after match...I DID NOT DO SO! OMG! wat to do!? so i haf to do it at night...which is like now...and currently im using the time im going to do maths to blog...shiet! wat can i do!? EEK! ok...after i blog....i got wash up....and take the maths paper and do it on my bed.....*bzzzz bzzz bzzz* "i see a premonition. Itz about myself. I see myself on the bed, sleeping. Wha what's tha beside me? OH! itz my maths paper. Itz only partially completed." *shoom* hmmm...wat happened? i tink i had a promonition! am i become a Seer? LoLx.. =X sianzzzzz.....whenever i see ppl studying..i feel very guilty leh! and asked myself...why the hell did i slack so much? geeex! i nid to buck up! EEK! but whenever im at home..i dun haf the "feeling" to study any...but to relax and slack...i nid to get out of my hse and study...but wif who? if itz myself alone...i scared i fall alslp in the public and no one wake me up...and i get...wahahahahaha!! >.<

HOW SIA!? my D&T folio haven do yet leh! siao liao! sure cannot finish de...zZzZ..speaking of D&T...i oso sian half liaoz...mainly becus of the subject itself...partly becus the teachers makes my blood boil and urks wif disgust...LOLx! but i wanna just complete my D&T and forget abt it alrdy! i dun wan to haf anyting to do wif D&T!! HAIX!

Im going to work tmr! half sian half excited...cus im goin to Mediacorp to work..haha...the same old job...4hrs nia..and they nid 3 guys nia...so we faster confirm and can go liao! LoLX...sry lin! i was informed today...so i cannot bring ur i-weekly go liaoz...hahas...next time bahx...and...we might not even see ur idol -Derrick- there wat..so no point...hahas....but i hope i can see feng ling again..hahas.. =X one more thing....we are meeting at 6.15am and i nid to wake up at 5+...and IM NOT ALSLEEP YET! OMG! hahas...tmr become panda lo..hahas... (@.@")

Oh..i just realise tt i haf alot of movies to watch...as in...alot of movies tt i wanna watch...hahas...die liao lo...i alrdy pok kai....how to watch? but still anways...anyone wanna watch wif me? ok..i list down the movies i wanna watch behx...

Note: They are all ranked from the Best to Good. well, itz my interest bah. If u wanna watch it too..plz tag the name of the movie on my board..i'll update the no. of ppl by the side. =)
1) Bewitched
2) Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
3) 7 swords
4) Land of the Dead [M18]
5) She's On Duty
6)The Maid
7) Mindhunters
8) Wedding crashers

Aiyoyo....i will surely go bankrupt de...i will soon announce tt im bankrupt..no wait.. I AM now bankrupt... >.<>

Boredom ruLezzz...My arSe it RuLes

2005-08-05T18:35:00.000+08:00

YaWWnnzzzz...haaaallloooo peeeppppllee...LLLLooooLLxXxx...kk done wif the yawning...excuse me...today was a total....erm...dunno wat word to use to describe my day in sch...it just...made me moody...but i cant...made me angry...but im tired to be...itz just a day tt made me be on the verge of murdering sumone or even scold sumone...but im just too tired of everyting....a few ppl says i argue alot...even my family....i dun deny tt..but wat i am doin is that...if i feel tt im right..i fight for myself...if im wrong...i apologises...but now im sooooo sooooo sooooo tired of argueing...even talking is a chore now...my english sux big time...and Mother tongue result is coming out..and my english O' lvl exam falls on Monday, 15 Aug...i just dun wan to talk right now....im just in a very low self-confidence mode right now...itz not going to go up anytime soon...or maybe never...im just tink tt sumtimes i adapt too much to my circle of frens...yang says i can adapt and i oso soon realise tt i adapt to different ppl...we just haf so much weakness..."no one is perfect"...tt phrase is good...i've listened to alot of ppl sharing their secrets wif me...their trouble wif me....but i can share mine to 1 of them onli...there was one more...but i decide not to disturb her anymore....and the sole listener oso shared his to me too....i can't tell my family abt the problems...they either dun understand me or simply dun care...heres the analysis...

My dad- can be very caring when hes sober but when hes drunk at night, he wuld just nag and nag and repeat the same thing over and over again. Like chanting. and when u walk away giving the pissed of look or making any sound, he will say tt no one listens to him and watever ting tt can be used to reprimand us.- itz not like we dun wanna listen...but if hes drunk every night...he simply repeat himself wat he said the night before..and the next morning, he dunno wat had happened...itz like double personality. and he often direct his topic to me...and itz often me who will entertain my dad...and itz oso often me tt make the "conversation" into a heating arguement...im just too tired ok....

My mom- very caring always, naggy when itz at night. Mainly becus we will be staying up late. so tis cannot be avoided. But sumtimes im just very pissed wif the nagging. u dun nid to noe the reason. becus it will make me rude and words will be flying everywhere. Ttz all abt my mom's analysis.

My brother - NEVER care and abusive. He only cared abt playing computer when he reach home and he NEVER speak politely. How wuld ppl normally ask when u nid a favour? Politely right? He had simply ordered me to do those tt he wanted me to help with. When talking on the phone, to his friends, he is so dam nice. A total change in character and personality. What a hypocrit. When hes at home, i never had a chance to touch the computer. NEVER! When hes alslp and i accidentally made sum noise arnd him, i can onli expect sum part of my body to be kicked or punched. And when im alsleep, he talked loudly on the fone wif his fren (galfren esp.) on his bed, or blast the music as loud as possible. Having absolutely NO consideration abt me sleeping.What can i do? kick and punch him? i might end up having a chair thrown at my direction. It not like he has never threw a chair at me before. Nor is he still new in pulling my head and knock against the wall. It all happened when i was in primary school and no one knew my sufferings. He made me not cry when i was young. Even if i cried, i will cry alone. In a small isolated room. Not letting either of my parents to know how much i suffered. Even if they found out, i have to deny it just to temporary stop my suffering for awhile. It brings pain and tears as i was recalling wat had happened to me when i was young. Quite a few of my frens in school saw my brother before. I dun deny tt he better looking and taller than me, but i am just DISGUSTED when my frens were complimenting/comparing my ugly-ness wif his absolute beauty. Ever wonder why are there scars on my face? brown spot-like stain on my hands? Those are nail marks dammit. and itz all caused by him. I still have alot more abt my brother to type, but i tink i will just stop here. All those analysis abt my family should actually be in my really personal diary( started recently, din update much either).

Maybe i am really fortunate to be still alive after so much suffering i had. I've tot of suicide, but i tot of my mom. Secondarily (<-- is there such word?) is the knowledge tt the tv taught me. Or maybe itz just tt i dun haf the courage to die.

School suK today...the 1st half of the day was alright before it is time for D&T. I almost blew up during D&T today. The teachers tt were suppose to help us in D&T weren't helping..maybe abit..but not tt much. Heres another analysis of our teachers.

Mr Muthu- U nid to haf a cheebye to make him help u. ( get it?!)
Mr Iskanda- U nid to be a pet of his to make him help u.
Mr Leo- U nid to create a good impression of urself before he start to pick on u.

Itz just totally pisses me off when i saw them in the workshop...really...more updates abt them will be in the next entry..i hope...LoLx...anyway..i got to go now...bye ppl...

`WizO` Out-

zzZzzZzz (z.z )

2005-08-03T22:09:00.000+08:00

hi again peepz! hahas....gees...im just too tired to type le la...imy eyes very "sour"...tink got wood dust went in and nv came out....cus i got tis feeling tt tears are going to fall down from my eyes...but itz just watery..LoLx @.@ how how? any remedy to cure it? or simply...water? LoLx..oh ya...did i tell u all...nowadays alot of my frens are getting sick...but to simplify things...ppl around me are getting sick! LOL! hmmm....hope they get well soon right? hahas...i had 2 test in 2 seperate days..bio first and geog later...i got to say...i suck at both of them...when i was doing the bio paper...i was like...filling up the papers and not really really answering the qns...mainly becus i dunno how to do!! omg! den was geog...again.. OH MY GOD! lOlx...luckily it was onli MCQ...or else im gonna die a terrible death...geees! i seriously nid to study le...but itz just me saying and not doin..."actions speaks louder den words" haha...

I heard tt tmr we are going to take our chinese O' level result...i dunno wat i am going to do....wat if i fail? wat if i dun get good grade for oral? wat if i dun get the grade tt i wanted so badly? wat am i going to do? i dun wan to re-take alrdy...haiz...but maybe i haf to... wat can i do?! tips? hmmmx...i really really wish tt i can get good grades..but its final alrdy..wat i haf to do is to accept the reality and decide wat to do...URGH! aiyo....today was our sch had education fair..."wow we got edu fair"... =,=" Lolx...we went into the hall early in the morning...the chairman of the fair was late..delaying all of us sec 4s...and wat happened was tt...we onli haf until 8:50 to visit the booths and the chairman and our principal finish their speech at 8:39...i was like wtf man? 11 minutes see wat sia....LUCKILY our principal finally announced tt we can spend another period in the hall...to compensate for our time...hahas...there was a 'commotion' between Nigel, Yang Zhi, Watcharit and me...we were talking abt tis gal at the Ngee Ann's booth..she is quite chio..den we were like betting tt...who will she looKing at if we four stand in front of her...LoLx...and we were like fighting for the place...LOL! den we simply just walk arnd lo...but we din really went to stand in front of the gal..we were just playing..lol..later tt gal tot tt ftp students like very despo and got rapist look...hahas...den i took quite a few brochures lo..mostly for Design and Bio-tech..hahas...den now i got alot of choices of the schs now..die....Raffles Design Institute, Media Design, 51k for 3 years...can pay by instalment, dunno got aggregate anot. Singapore Poly, Bio-tech, aggregate at least 13 i tink, 2.1k for the course i tink. *sumting* Sport School, Management, aggregate depend on tt year's students, course fee unknown. The rest...u gota find them urself...MUHAHAHAHAHA! =)

anyways..i tink i go le bah...cus i nid to bath and do some stuff le...hahas...enuff blogging for today...oh i forgot..i actually manage to finish off tis entry w/o my bro interrupting...LoLx...yay? hahas...tata peeps...oh ya! dun mind abt the blogskin...but i got no time to change le..just tolerate for awhile? LoLx.. xP~

Nani?

2005-07-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

hola! im blogging in the middle of the night..well...maybe not yet...but going to! LoLx! and currently the screen is like spinning.... @.@ having headache for the whole day....LoLX...i was hoping tt i nid not go to sch tmr....but i guess i will haf to go..becus...im always illness-free after a night's sleep....lol..

Nothing much really happened today..just kept sms-ing after i got waken up by my bruthur's loud music..as usual...lolx...can u believe it? i sms frm afternoon to night...wahaha...tt must've cost a bomb... x.X and tt meant tt i woke up in the noon...LoLx! woopz? actually i WAS planning to do DnT today...but dunno wat had gone over me...after my 'brunch' i went to laze arnd my bed...till like the time for dinner...i din sleep during the "lazing arnd" period though....was sms-ing (din i say tt earlier? hmmmx) but partly becus my bro was still blasting the music in the rm and kept on disturbing me....when i was partially alslp...he come and kick me or tick me wif his finger....and he tot tt itz funni or fun...i dun see the reason to luff....loL! den i was like taking the boister to hit him....lolx!

Now now....i tink hor...i wanna go Mediacorp work liao...becus i like in the morning...i sms-ed shi hui on wat was going on in Mediacorp today and asked who went to the studio to act as to replace us...den she say no one...and she say she saw alot of stars too..lolx...and i was like..."dam..y din i go?" and i kinda miss working there alrdy...as in...work WITH them...lolx...i miss feng ling....LoLX...but can see her on tv... =.=" oh ya...when i saw the lastest commercial for "Tong Xing Yuan"....she was going to be raped by her fiance(<--is tt spelt correctly?) right? den when she scream help tt time...i tink i felt tears rumbling in my 'tear duct' (is there such tings?) LoLx...dunno..hahas...maybe becus of the tv stars tt i will see....i wanna work there again....LoLx..sia la..wat a stupid idea...Lolx...but i alrdy asked shi hui to inform us if there are such job again..and she said she will inform me immediately when she got such tings again...and i will look for 2-3 ppl first....coming first in my list, Zhi Xiang- great comedian/friend, Yi Long- best friend to look for for companionship, Jian How- a great crappy guy tt can sumtimes crap wif me abit.. *grin* wait..y did i add the comments when i said im just gonna just put the names? LoLx....but anyways...if u all wan those comments frm me...plz put it in the tag blog...OR u all can tag wateva u tink of me...ok? it is greatly appreciated.. heeheex..and for darrell...."onli comments w/o crap and lies will be entertained" heeheex.. woopz? xP~

ok....if i continue to blog any furthur..im gonna go blind....becus arnd itz 12:07am when i finish blogging....LoLx...so...i tink i go le bahx...cus my head is getting heavier for each letter i typed...and my head is gonna touch the ground soon...too heavy liaox...LoLx! "Have a little faith in me~" (by Mandy Moore- my ex gal fren) lololololololx...no comments.. =) i miss working in Mediacorp~ bye peeps! xP~

OMG! Happiness filled...

2005-07-23T22:27:00.000+08:00

wahahahahaha! it had been 8 days since i haf another blog entry in here...hahas....and today...im in absolutely great mood today....but still got abit of unhappiness within...guess wat? i went out early in the morning..to work...LoL! as a "calafe" in Mediacorp..the real one..lolx..we saw Chen Feng Ling when waiting near the entrance of the wardrope...she is onli slightly shorter den me! wah tall sia! and one more thing...SHE IS DAM DAM CHIO!!! DAM PRETTY! omg......we went to the wardrope of Mediacorp...den took our sch uniform...Raffles JC one LEH! wooowooo! but the badge was replaced by another badge...MCS...stands for Media Corp Studio.....lol....not bad sia...all white...den i look in the mirror in the changing rm...LOL! nice sia!~ =) hahas...den when we came out...and standing near the entrance....Chen Feng Ling came out from the wardrope room....omg! pretty! lol...holding on to her clothes...den...nellie went up to her and say whether she can take pic wif her...woah...shes so lucky to haf her beside her...becus we can gauge how short compared to Feng Ling....lol! feng ling is like 1 and a half head taller sia....wahahahha....den...the gals was supposed to take her onli...and thx to my legs..i manage to stand behind the gals and took the foto...LoLX....nice nice...wahahaha.....really...she's sooo pretty! lol...*melts* den after the *photo-shoot* she went away...den nv take her clothes..lol...den nellie called out to her abt the clothes..feng ling say she very blur one...lolx! woot! den she went into the make up room...hahas...den we waited for the bus...again...and..we saw Piere Peng (dunno spelt correctly anot) and some of us called him yang yang..lol! den after tt...an working aunty came out wif a blue single-sit sofa....holding in her arms...she seems to be having problems wif tt...she was perspiring all over...lol..den...i decide to go and ask her whether she nid help anot...lolx...and obviously...she nided it...so i help lo...hahas...den while walking down the stairs...Feng Ling came out of the make up room le! den she saw the aunty saying thank to me...den like..feng ling say tt..."Haha..becus hes from MCS, ttz y he wanna help Media Corp mah" and she laughed...and touched me by my arm...it was just split second...i almost melted....not becus of the hot sun im standing under...but the physical comtact wif her...LOL! i sound so pervertic in tis entry...but i cant stop complimenting Feng Ling's beauty... wahahahaz...i was just smiling at her and the aunty...wahahahax..

Den me, still holding on to the sofa, together wif the aunty went for a long trip into the building...but den she say if im in a rush..i can go 1st..den i say..hmm..nvm...i'll just drop the sofa when itz near the entrance of the building...and true enuff...i put the sofa at the exit that read "Emergency Fire Exit" LOL! they used that exit for casual exits..den i went back to the "waiting place"...hahas...when i went back...long told me tt Piere Peng was walking toward the bus tt Feng Ling was in...den our group say to him.." yang yang..can ask Mermaid to take foto wif u?"...den he said.." Nope...shes in the bus waiting for me alrdy...hafta go lo"...den my fren say " dun bite ur hand liao arh!" den he actually turned back and say " ok" LOLOL! how cool is tt?.wahahahs...i wanna do it again! i wanna work there again! =) that fren of mine i mentioned is dam funni de la...although hes working the same thing as us....but he go mimic the male lead actor's lines...lolx..and modify it..woot! cool sia! den alot of funni things happened...itz really really fun to work wif them...hahas...i wanna do it again..no matter wat..but dunno still got tis chance anot...i sure hope and wished tt i can...so i nid opportunities! =)

We saw lots of stars...we even saw the project super star's finalists there...almost everyone of them...LoLX! we sa Ou Shuan, Julian Hee, Su Qi, etc alot worx...hahas...

After our work is done at Nan Qiao High, we went back to the Mediacorp....den we saw ALOT of gals by the gate...wahahaha....must be here to support the guys in project super star...hahas...den...we realised tt...THEY ARE SO FREAKING RICH! DAMMIT!!! sum of the gals booked the taxi...and those van-mercedes-type of taxi....omg omg...rich..den when they saw us..they are like kept looking at us...and sum, staring....they must be dam jealous tt we can go into Mediacorp just like tt....hahaha! too bad gals...WE HAF THE PASS!!! BUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! get a life gals...quit wasting money and go mediacorp and scream the hell out of urself...if u all save the money spent on booking the taxis....and accumulate all the money together...i tink u all can buy the hse tt is right opposite mediacorp alrdy...isnt it more convenient? kaoz!

i tink wearing another uniform tt represents another type of identity is SOOO cOOL! wahahahaha...esp. RJC's uniform...wahahaha....felt so smart when wearing it...hahas =X i really wish to go Mediacorp again..wif my mates today....really...itz really fun...im having the obssession in goin to Mediacorp wif my mates...lol....itz like how im so obssessed abt wizardry and volleyball! i haf 3 greatest obssessions now! wahahahaha!

hahas....actually we are going to act tmr oso de...but...itz 7am to 7pm...12 hrs for $20..not worth it...hahas....today we onli work 3 hrs and we got $20 liaoz... xP~ hahas....and itz onli walking here and there...hahas...i tink ttz enuff for today le bah? hahas....till next time folks! =)

`WizO` Out`~

Deaf!

2005-07-15T18:30:00.000+08:00

HOHO! Blogging today! not as usual...LoL! becus my bro isnt home when i am blogging! WEEE! yea yea! *grins* hahas...anyways! me and a few classmates-cum-friends-cum-nice ppl are coming up wif a news reporting blog named....erm....dun really haf a name...or haf i forgotten alrdy? LOL! anyways...we are called "The Confessionals"....hahas! still okok bah tt name...sounds like professionals...haha! but if that blog is officially updated into the 'blog zone'...PLZ support our blog....haha! itz shared among...1...2...3..4...yea...4...lol! now for the task....letz talk abt mine first...im in charge of daily crappy news, both real and crap, and oso....DAILY GOSSIPS! woohoo! mainly from our class of cus..i alrdy got quite a few gossips...hehes...let me gif u a preview....today, 15 july 2005, Marcus in our class told Cassandra that he taste good when he meant that the soup tasted good...LOL!!! He taste good? i wonder...hmmx....white tasty and tender meat...LolX! imagine a guy saying "i taste good" to a gal....wat haf u got in mind now? LOL!!! woot! tt all i can reveal bah...more juicy gossip abt our class or celebs and oso the latest news abt the world or s'pore....plz go and take a look in our blog....haha! haven really haf tt rdy..so patients k? =X hahas...

As i was saying...the task....i, Edric, is in charge of the gossips and news.....Jasmine is in charge of Korea and Japan s' news and everyting abt it....Alfred is in charge of the 'weather' and fashion design? becus he always read magazine...hahaS! weather man.. =X and last but not least, Julian aka Natheniel aka sum name tt starts wif D and apparently i forgotten liao, is in charge of 'unagony' (i tink ttz how u spell tt bah?) lolol! and together, theres a section under humour tt any of us can update....OH YA! did i mention that Jasmine is oso in charge of e-lo-tick stories? LOL! well...u gota read it urself...muahahHAhaHA! itz a must go and a MUST TAG blog for everyone....hahas! ttz where we as students get our burden off our shoulders and haf a good luff....hahas! If theres is any juicy gossips or latest news in ur sch (no matter where) that u wanna share wif everyone...plz tell me! loloL! i will make it fun...hahas...oh ya....the names of the ppl in the reports including our own names will be changed to protect the right of the 'victim' or the person being interviewed....lolol! xP~ i was tinking to change my nick....Edric sounds.....bad i tink...any suggestions? plz tell me personally or just tag it in tis blog...hehes! PLZ! name tt is not tt common...hahas! and i might make it official... =X

Guilt Haunts! >.<

2005-07-12T20:27:00.000+08:00

Welcome to the next latest article of Mediacrap. ok! i can't really type in purrrfect english...as in..full typing...i nid to use short forms and broken english...at least a bit? =X anyways! today...tink lots of things happened? we had our usual lessons and stuff..and as usual...i was slping in bio lesson....dam! i wanna listen de leh! URGH! den got caught by mdm lung...and she ask me wats in my dream...and to escape...i said FOOD! lol...hmmmx...i wasnt listening in SS class..die....i hafta work on my SS OSO! URGH! hur hur! glad tt i settled sum cases outside sch...hahas.. now is all to studies...and abit of games of course...hahas! xP~ *transform* *pew pew*

Today, on Mediacrap's news. We are really sad to announce that Edric had witnessed an unhappy event when he was going home. Edric, who is me, witnessed a car accident. While crossing the road near our school, i saw a cat (i suppose is female) carrying her kitten going across the road. I thought it was sweet, but when she was crossing the road, she lose her grip onto her kitten and let her kitten fell onto the middle of the road. The kitten cried helplessly when her mom went to the roadside to seek refuge from the in coming cars. I was only about more or less half a metre away from the kitten. I could run and grab the kitten and reach the other side with the kitten safe. But i did not. Instead, i walked even slower than my usual speed and stared at the kitten. If I had ran to grab the kitten, i could be knock down by the car. The kitten was ran over by the car. The kitten went under the car's wheels, twice. I was just standing be the road side and look at how the cat got run down by the car and did nothing. What am I good at? Talk? I am good at NOTHING! Not studies, not even saving a kitten. I thought the kitten was dead. Fortunately, it WASN'T!I heard it mew-ing after the car went by. I was relieved.

Then i cross the road and when i was side by side of the kitten, i saw the kitten's hind leg broken and not moving. Then, came another car. It was red in colour. I was given a second chance to safe the kitten, but again, i did not. What i did was just walking pass the kitten and keep mumbling the phrase "I'm really sorry." I kept turning back to look at the kitten and did nothing. When i was on the red pavement, i turned and looked back and saw a man carrying a young infant and holding a young child's hand putting up his left hand to signal for the car to stop. I quickly turn back and kept on walking. I suppose that the kitten was saved by the noble father of two. Parenthood is so noble. I can only be guilty for what I have done and not done. I really am sorry for what had happened. I had felt the urge to cry out and say sorry for what i have done to the kitten, but i knew it was of no use. The kitten is not able to understand what i said and i thought that it would hold a grudge for what i have not done but should have did. I was still pondering about how the kitten is doing now and still possess the guilt within me and is unable to be free from the entanglement. I soon found out that if it were some of my friends, they would rather die than to let the kitten suffer for the rest of its life. This had further add on to my guilt. I can never forget about the selfish act that i did. I can still hear the saddening cry from the kitten and how it had moved helplessly on the middle of the road as i walked pass it. I finally realise why did the saint murderers went to confess that they killed someone. Its because they lost to Guilt. The ordeal that they went through after their hands were stained with blood that is not their's. I felt useless. No, I am useless. What i hope now is for the kitten's forgiveness and not have the karmic retribution befalling onto my family. If people have to suffer because of this, choose me.

sry peepz if tis blog entry doesnt entertain u all much....im just too guilty to write anything funni when some living things are suffering out there becus of my selfishness....i really am sry.

`wiZo ouT`

OOPZ!!! MUST READ! ppl who read will luff

2005-07-09T12:30:00.000+08:00

hmmmx....*cough cough* hahas...sry to peeps tt read my blog...wahahaha....din haf time to blog..cus kept going out.....but not study...OMG! not study? im dead...i WANT to study...haha....how how? hmmx...For today's latest news....apparently....whenever the time reaches the night....i will start coughing and my voice will "mutate" into sum coarse voice...haha...is tt the symtoms of my vioce breaking? i dun tink so! cus i cough so badly sia! wahahaha.....den in the day nothing happen....anyone noe wat is happening to me anot? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! even my bruthur noes tt my vioce will mutate at night....wahahahah.... die liao los... hahas...today was mun's singing competition...we went to support her! woowoo! hahas...she din make it..but i tink her voice rox! she sing quite well wat...i tink is the judges...bucus for abt half an hours....ppl who went up...almost 80% of the contestants are KO-ed rather den OK....LoLx! so nvm lo...try again bahs....oh! i rmb liao...the judges say shes too young in the competition liaoz... wooot! hahas....nothing much to blog today...except tt....we took a bus ride abt 1hr40mins like tt frm jurong to tpy...LOL! we were saying to go to balestier one...but...wrong bus! LOL! xP~ so go to tpy lo...hahas...den at night...abt 8+pm....me, kt and naddie went to play badminton near my hse...hahas! cool nehx? play until sweaty sweaty!... *cough cough* and thx to tt kind soul...tt lend us the net and the court...we get to play! hahas! oopz... =) play till 10+ worx..den i chiong water...i tink all the sugar is giving me diabetes....haha! 3 can of drinks leh! chrycenthemum tea, green tea and lemon barley....wah...all high in sugar! x.x den got 1 pepsi ICE in my fridge...rdy for me...hahas! i bought xtra..woowoot! xP~ *cough cough* die le la...i tink my throat is gonna suffer alot....cus...im coughing like siao liaoz.. =X but itz at night onli leh! how!? aiyo...tell doctor maybe they oso dun believe sia... xP~ but my bro and mom noes tt my throat ONLI evolves at night...die lo!~ =X less cold drinks? no candies? no high sugar content stuff? wahahahaha...i doubt ttz typical cough lo...it onli happens at night lehx...aiyo...4get abt my cough...hahas....

Now for sports news....London has won the bid for 2012 Olympic's hosting, Mediacrap would like to congratulate them for winning it. (Quote) You're with me, Edric Ong , in sports news. Stay tune to Mediacrap for more juicy gossip about the world's most well known and most sexy female on earth, Benjalina Joely (<--ben, ttz u) and of course, Brag Titts (omg i cant believe im talking abt "alex" in ben's blog), who happen to be husband and wife in Mr and Mrs Sniff.

Now for Mediacrap's news, there is only one employee aka employer in Mediacrap and we are currently looking for local talents to work as an "Crappy Reporter" to get all the juicy gossips about the famous people around. And also, we are currently looking for a strong camera-man to hold the kamerla to shoot those crappy things that we might report. Look out fateful and loyal citizen of Sing-ka-spore, you all might be the people that we want. Come now for oddition before u missed the chance! xp~ If YOU want the job, please tag ur name in the 'tag-board' and explain why you should get the job. *again* And you're with me, Edric Ong, in Mediacrap. Tune in to Mediacrap in the next entry. *grins*

CUT! director: good one edric.. hehes...

WOOT! not bad aye...i tink i can go be reporter lo! hahas....tis is onli the 1st article worx...more to come in other articles in Mediacrap... =) hmmmx..i wished to blog more on tt article...but...i tink ttz all for today le bah....cus...my bro is chasing me to get off tis blog liao...hahas...till next time readers! i will make ur day...i hope.. =)

WAH! boredom!

2005-07-03T21:47:00.000+08:00

*cough cough* hahas..ello peeps! back in blogging le! hahas.. =P hmmm...letz talk abt today...hahas...today arh...i got disturbed in the morning...abt 9+ am...wahahahaha....dam...y? becus my bro is preparing to go sentosa and he switch on the com's music very loudly...kaoz! den after he went away....to sentosa wif his frens....he left the com open...wif the music still blasting! liew liew! den after lazing in my bed for awhile....i decide to "officially" wake up and use the com...haha... xP~ den the whole day i just used the com...and like chat wif frens...check mails and things i can do wif the computer....DECENT things... xP~ hahas...den arnd 4+ pm den i go da bao my food...chicken rice...it suck...so salty... =P but i haf no choice but to continue eating.. xP~ after me brunch...i continue using the computer....LOL! wat a life...i nid a real new life...LoLX! but using the computer isnt all bad...i received news...can be gd news or bad news bah...KK told me tt theres the volleyball tournament in sentosa coming up...and ask whether wan to join anot...den the entry fee ish $70 bucks...sharing among the 4 team-mates...so itz arnd $16 per person....and the 1st 4 ppl i tot of is...jerome, KK, yu lin and me...they all play very well...except me...wahahaha...yu lin say i dunno how to receive ball....hahas...i oso dunno y....but moved when i saw the ball got hit over the net...hahas... xP~ so now we are gonna decide whether we wanna go and play anot...but if they dun wan me to join...den ask herman to join... =) tink he can play better den me behx? yea..tink so...hahas...i dun tink i play well either...so ttz the point tt i haf to consider b4 i let any of my friends in the game down... ~.~

Still...today i did nothing but stayed in my hse and use the computer....man..like wat like tt...haha....im crazy.. xP~ hmmm....the match falls on 23 july...haha...one day match...if we get in...means we are gonna play a few matches in one day...hmmm..but i still dunno if we can play well wif me in there...haiz...i might be a disappointment to my team mates...shuld i or shuld i not? aiyo...guess im not good at anything but crap...tink my post for today ends here bah...hahas...tmr goin study wif ben....haiyo....hmm...today is such a boring day! KAO! xP~

WAHaH! Disrupted EmotionS

2005-07-02T23:56:00.000+08:00

*cough cough* heya ppl! back again....1st and foremost....sry to those who haf been so kind to visit my blog so often~~ im really really touched *teary eyes* LOL!~ i will try to updtae my blog as often k? anyway...back to the main subject- Blogging.

today i came back frm camp in the afternoon which was held in sch since ytd...LOL! dam fun...we played water bomb and FOOD WAR in the morning!! GREAT morning excercise isnt it? lOL!!! fun fun!!! can we haf all of tt again? we put in flour, baked beans, bread and milo into the water respectively and consecutively....den we throw at those campers..did i mentioned that we threw eggs at them too?..LOL!....we get ourselves wet, the boys wet and of cus...the gals really wet... xP~ LOLOL!!! den dunno y long wans to throw water at the gals so much...he says he wan them to get wet....and true enuff...he got the gals all wet!~ LOL! den we gif them a chance to throw water at us...no matter wat "ingredient" was added oso can...den..who noes....our campers are so ruthless! ><>.> LoLx.. but the feet very pain leh...our parade square got those small small pebble bits on the floor...den step liao....like..WAHAHA! paiN! haha...and can u imagine running on them? anyway....i cut my hand when i was holding a bucket....2 fingers was cut...and they kept on bleeding none stop....which makes my fingers dripped blood at the tip...haha..becus im wet liao..den the water make the blood flow down faster...haha....but i dun mind la...haha...i used the hardered flour to stop the bleed awhile...den who noes....the soft+hard flour dropped off my finger and..itz staing wif blood...den i see liao tot my whole skin drop off! LOL!!! cus it really look like skin sia! soft soft de....but materialised... EEK! i stop the bleed using the cold water at the water cooler...LOL gg....dun tell u all which water cooler i used...next time u all drink and smell blood..u noe wat happened.. xP~ heex...den after we played...the campers went to clean themselves up for the games coming up next....and we ICs? clean the parade square... =.=" itz really tuff work sia...but..we very responsible de.. xP~ LOL! we scrap and sweep and use water host....haha...fun throwing water...tiring cleaning...lol.

Ok...back to ytd's fun...ytd camp...lol...at night is the most fun de...we hid inside the toilet in the 5th floor...den ask ICs outside to ask 1 person by 1 person into the toilet...den scare them...bois not fun de..nv scream...while gals...MUHAHAHAHAHA....very fun to hear them scream and like....see the expression of them scared...hahas... =X jkjk....just like to scare ppl.. xP~ but sumting really creepy tt scares the hell out of every ICs (becus we onli let the ICs noe)....we had a walkie talkie placed in one cubicle in the toilet...den..Jian how was saying ghost story tru it..it was meant to scare them...but...while he was saying the story ( note: onli he was talking in the walkie talkie and we arent suppose to tok tru the walkie talkie), a gal voice came into the story telling....saying twice...as we knew tt no one is suppose to tok...Jian How they all freaked out..they stopped the whole thing den discuss further...den they conclude tt the voice belong to one of our schmate tt was sitting wif our teacher incharge....but sum still believed tt itz not her....but who else? LoLX!

i tink tis is my longest entry in my record bah...haha! but itz really nice to share the fun..haha....oh ya! more things coming up...i was studying wif Esther ytd....b4 i went to camp..i was very late to meet her becus after sch i went hm to change mah...haha...den i brought chocolate and mentos to amend my mistake for being late for so long.. xp~...we were studying maths...den she showed me all the notes and sums...wahaha...so difficult....but i managed to get sum into my head bah...haha..but...i kept looking into the sch..den hor...Esther will "da wo".. ~.~ buwee me...haha...she wan me concentrate marh...LOlx..but how to concentrate when itz after my chinese oral which i tink i had a extremely horrible time...when i saw the teachers as i approached them for my turn...i realised tt the past years of chinese vocabulary i learnt had all disappeared in my mind...i was so nervous...i dunno wat happened to me...but when i was reading tt time...i suddenly read wif spacing in between words SIA! OMG! how can like tt? URGHH!! no hope for distinction in oral liao....maybe pass onli...but i nid distinction..omg~~ maybe my ambition is too wild and out of control...haiz...hahas...but...got a few ppl was there for me...and mdm goh was kinda kind to me went i came out...she was listening to wat we said and explained wat we wuld get bah...lol....i tink i will stop here le bah? cus...very long le nehx~~~ haha....i took 2 hrs typing tis entry worx! LOL!... =P till next time...GoOD LuCk in EvEryTinG! muax peepz~!

WaT Do U waN mE tO dO!?! DamMit!

2005-06-27T22:31:00.000+08:00

right ppl...im back here again..i noe i dun really update my blog..and..no matter wat...plz come and tag me..cus..i dun really haf anyting to write mah...haha....haiz...sch reopen liao hor? haha! today kinda sian...early morning hear Raj scold here and there...wait here and there...boss arnd so much...gees....very sian 1 leh tis kind..liew.. =X den we had our reading period..den it came to literature....haha! mrs maaran gave a talk on our O' LvL bah..haha...cus she wan us to buck up in studies..to be specific..literature...LOL! xP~ actually itz kinda true bah...haha...she said sumting like "we studied for 10 years and tis is the main objective tt can determine our own future" hmmmx....guess lots of ppl got enlightened by her bah...haha...she always gif tis kind of speech when it is the 1st day of sch after hols..hmmm....makes me so guilty not to study...haiz! i want and i NID to study le lar!! wah lao! scared le...the atmosphere getting very tense le la! liew...haiz...den..the rest of the day was quite ok lo...haha...except DnT...mr leo gave a tok during the 1st period of D&T and finally let us go do our coarse work...hahas.. =P i actually did abit le la..haha...not too bad...but mr leo said we nid to rush liao! cus...we late liao...den even mr leo himself oso kan jiong...hahas =X DEN! here comes assembly..zzz...i slept truout the whole assembly..cus..our principal was saying sumting about enterprise and thrust? dunno.. wasnt listening..haha! den after mdm aini finish her talk...Raj continued his scolding...KAO!! say wait here and there again...and said those who wanna tok...come and take over the mike...den refused to let us off..den i was tinking...if i am given a chance to go up there w/o been scolded and stuff like tt...i wuld say... "OK! u all are dismissed!" haha..so funni... =X but tt 1 can dream onli... xP~

LUNCH! woot! hahas...we went to LJS to eat..haha...the new 'Spicy and Lemon Breaded Fish' smells like ota and is not spicy...AT ALL!!! LOL! i hate ota...ewww...oh ya....i went to lunch wif Lin, Munirah, Ain and Ben! woot..all are funni ppl...LoLx...den ben and me finish eating 1st..den i came to tot of the comic tt came out recently tt i wanted to buy...den i asked ben to accompany me to Comic Connection to buy tt comic...haha... xP~nice worx him...hahas...den we went back to LJS lo! haha...den we went back home lo...hahas...nothing much happened next le la...haha...

oh ya....can ask all of u sumtin'? izzit a bad ting to smile all the time? or izzit just bad to be funni? or even cheerful? sumtimes keep smiling is very hard too u noe...and if u are too used to it...u will tend to keep wateva sad things to urself and kept smiling...not letting anyone noe abt wat u had gone tru....instead..they might just ting tt u are crazy to keep smiling or wat....or even tot of trying to get the smile off a person's face....itz really hard to get ppl to understand how one feels...sumtimes...it really hurts to see how others react to certain situation...especially when one of ur fren tt HAD been nice and all of a sudden..turn their back at u and wished u nv appeared or been alive...sad case aye? fret not...there are always a stream of light in total darkness....there will always be some really true frens to be wif u when u are down or even when u feels like toking to sumone...tis had happened to me...i had just hoped nothing had happened...nothing bad...and..itz really tuff and difficult to make one happy abt who u are....who u are now will sure upset sumone in other places...no one can ever haf anyone not hate or dislike them....i used to tinking tt i hope tt no one will hate me or dislike me...but it now seems tt wat i used to believed in had failed...no one can achieve tt standard...even the nicest person in the world will haf a few ppl who hate him...hate him for being nice? yea..maybe...for example...no offence here....Poop(<--dunno spelt correctly anot..LOL!) he was shot right? he was very nice to the world...he enlightens ppl...but wat had he got in return? a bullet in his body and sumting worth toking abt, Lots of respect...life is so hard to maintain at wateva u are now....life goes on...no matter u like it anot...time dun stop for anyone...well...maybe for wizards? LOL! dream on~ hahas! not even wizards... =) any feed back to tis paragraph...plz post it to my tag board...thx alot~~~ xP~ itz really hard to make ppl luff u noe...as to..truely luff....do u all noe tt luffing and smiling is gd for the mind and health? smiles gif ur brain an impression of happiness and makes u feel gd and less depressed....hahas...guess sum ppl just wuldnt appreciate their own smiles and luffter...a gloomy face nice meh? i prefer smiley face.. =) heex!

Crazy is wat crazy do... LoLx....im tokin junk!

2005-06-18T17:05:00.000+08:00

YYaWnNzzZzz! HaLo peepz....as u all noe how im gonna start...i will not do it today..LoLx...becus u all noe le! letz tink of sumtin new...hmmm....how bout..."headline news for today?"...hmm..cannot..too 'newspaper style'...how abt..."unnessessary wastage of gigabytes?"..LOL!!! i guess i'll just stick to the norm 1...haha...letz start shall we? dun wait le...hahas! =)

Actually...i din haf much to say today leh(<--always say tis but later got alot to type =X)...hahas..today...i woke up late...as usual...LoLx! actually..got up slightly earlier le leh....12pm..LoLx....arnd tt time...hahas! den i slack on my bed awhile....wait for sms replies and of cus..laze arnd, refusing to wake up....haha! but i had no choice...my bro was toking on the fone and it was so disturbing...after he hung up..i tot i can slp at peace at last...but he woke up and switch on the computer and blast the music...omg~ how can i slp like tt? aiyo~ wait till i take my revenge sum day..MuHaAHahA!~ i will blast the tv....haha! actually..me and my bro got sumtins in common...we will take revenge on each other....he blast computer while i blast tv...poor electronics...haha...see who win.... =X eeek! im not suppose to say tt we mistreat our electronics at home...LoLx...later they lounge a complain to the Wizard Board and im dead....hahaha...i will be charged there...magically...Lolx!!! wootz! but im studying at Hogwarts leh! but they do punish students there too...LoLx....im crappin' alot today haven i? Lolx...hmmm...maybe its becus my volleyball-mates and i are going sentosa tmr? haha! hope it will NOT be canceled...nor will there be rain...or i will go crazy behx! LOlx! not bad aye? =X hmmmx....i din do much in the afternoon..(or was it in the morning? nono...cannot be..i woke up in the noon! LoLx!) except goin Shop & Save to stock up my junk food...tis time i spent alot le leh! URGHHH!!! im broke~ any donors can donate to me? haha...haiz....economy now adays so bad...aiyo..haha!

i tink im gonna do D&T later bah...cus theres tis idea tt i drew halfway...LoLx...oh..did i say ben called ytd? to my hp? FRM HK!? Lolx! aiyo...he basically said tt china ppl just sumhow manage to persuade his parents to buy stuff bah...hahas....and he said his tour got alot ceiling...lOlx...and hes going crazy over them and stuff bahs...hahas... =) oh ya! ppl...if u all very free and got nothing to do....plz help me write testi can? puh lease~~~ haha! oh oh! and and help go to the longest link in my "link" and visit tt website....it will do my troops good..plz visit tt link daily can? LoLx...and of cus...refresh for at least 10 times can? plz~~~ i beg of u, my dear, lovable, cute, pretty, gorgeous frens~...LOL!! plz ? hehex... i tink i go and do my D&T le bah..and see how long can i last doin D&T....but..I haven study one bit in the hols at all leh! im so scared....im really scared.....i did not heed mdm rozainah's advice and study..becus i lack in self-discipline....OmG! im so guilty...EEK!!! haiz...i tink i go le la...after a few hours or D&T...maybe study abit? but i doubt i can study bah...wahhh~~~ good luck ppl...in ur studies or work...no matter wat...stay happy and enjoy ur life~ xP~

YaWnzZzZz~ 2 in 1? wootx!

2005-06-16T16:18:00.000+08:00

wooooooooooooTz! LoLx! nvm tt...letz get on wif our blog of the day.. xP~ today..i kinda like "woke up" at 7 o clock...to switch tt alarm off....but...i went back to slp....haha! i was supposed to go for D&T today...and i am supposed to be preparing to go sch at 7am..but..i slept back again...haha! den...i suddenly "woke up" at 9am again....and was tinking whether to go to D&T anot...(was lazing on my bed.."thinking" xP~) and den...while i was tinking...i fall aslp again! LoL! den...i "woke up" at 11:25am to reply sum msges(<---by the big,"old","working", and oso "serving NS" -Darrell- LoLx!) den...i was tinking of calling my klazmates at the work shop...but...bill high la...aiyo...den...after i reply all the msges...i went back to slp...LOL!!! den in the end....i slept till 2:03pm in the afternoon...haha! yawnzZZzZ! LOLx! den i woke up..(tis time no more slping back le....well...maybe later? LoLx!) den i go do my stuff and went downstairs wif my bruthur to eat...fishball noodle again...LOL! nice! sadub! *thumbs up* den when i came back to my hse...i kept on tinking of doin D&T...but my body just wun move! well...except using the com and taking sum of my junk food to eat....LOL! man..my body ish evil... WAAAHHH!!!! wat can i do? and seriously now...i saw my horoscope for the day in my email...and it says..."stop saying and get down to work...words but no action can get nothing done" LOL! i tink tt ish so true... haiz...guess i'll haf to do D&T later le...who ask me...pon D&T today...again...LoLx...haiz...i wan to do...but i dunno how~~! URGHH!!! once again....D&T ish such A pain in the @sS! grrr!

ok! letz tok abt ytd...cus ytd no time to blog...so i blog today...LoLx....ytd i went out wif quite a few of my volleyball mates...man tt was fun! LoLx...we went to the movie btw...haha...not play volleyball tis time... =X we watched "Benji"..haha! sounds like "benggie"? woopz! =X den b4 we went into the theatre....ALL except Kelvin and me noes frens there...LoLx...den they kept on meeting their frens at Cineleisure... wahahaha! den me and KK down there zi bi...and act tt we just knew each other...LoLx....kinda dumb..haha! xP~ oh ya..!! Hong da changed alot lehs! hes like an adult now sia....wah kao! he stand at the MRT station and i tot is an adult sia....hes wif a PDA oso leh! rich..liew liew....den we all call him da ge and called ziwei da jie... =) heeheex! while still waiting at Cine b4 the movie starts...we saw Karen! omg! she changed alot oso! wooT! more chio and pretty lo! she slim down alot...den dyed her hair...wootz! and..we saw Yatoo(<--i dunno spell correct anot) wah...den he dam dao..see us nv call us...den like we smiled at him den he diao us! wah liew! we were late for our movie...becus..Esther ate slowly...LoLx! she came in last in our lunch when she was the 1st to buy her food! LoLx! anyway..."Benji" is kinda nice...although there isnt many ppl watching tt show...haha! den we simply hang out wif each other after the movie...we WERE walking towards Far East when our dear Esther (again) said we are goin to toa payoh...LoLx! nvm tt...haha...oh ya..did i say tt i was the ONLY one tt got beaten up among the ppl there? mostly by Esther (AGAIN!)

we were eating at Fork & Spoon when dunno izzit KK or Herman said tt "Charmed" was on tv le...i was like..OMG!!! THERES CHARMED TODAY!!! URGHHH!!!! den i panic and pulled out my specs and watch for 15 minutes....lucky there isnt any interesting stuff in Charmed tt day...except the Charmed ones became childish for sum reason tt i missed out....OMG!!! HOW CAN I MISS TT EPISODE!!! =.=" we left F&S..den...we went home....Ziwei took bus home...Esther and I walked home together...den Herman go meet his stead and Kelvin walked home...haha! xP~

i tink ttz all for today lo peepx! haha! hope u all noe wat had happened in these 2 days....haha! i tink i go do D&T le bah...haha...xP~ and i spent like 35 minutes typing this bloggy...haha.. xP~ enjoy peepx! I wAn Go SenToSa! WAAAHHH!!!!! im GoIn On ThE 22nd WiF mY KlAzzmAtEs...i Wonder when can i go sentosa wif my volleyball mates....maybe tis sunday? WEEE!

OMFG!!! xP~

2005-06-14T19:04:00.000+08:00

woot woot.....u ppl will noe wat im gonna say...right! itz " letz not wait and go to today's topic"..right? i hope itz left....LoLx...(<---sarcasm) anyways....like i said...letz not wait... =P hmmmx.....today...i wake up at 7 oclock....awoke by the alarm noise tt my handfone made in the LIVING ROOM!!! omg...i haf gd listening...LoLx....im joking... =P anyways...i went down to the kopi shop to eat my breakfast....fishball noodle...=.=" kinda nice...but im just not used to eating fishball noodle in the morning! loLx... xP~ but...the food is free! cus my dad cooked it..LoLx.. xP~ and im really proud of it...haha! yum! =) den..i tot i could be late for D&T today....but u noe wat? i wasnt....even when i took my own sweet time to walk to the workshop....and yea..im not late..*dam* LoLx...den i went to Shop & Save to stock up in my junk food....and brought it to the workshop...haha! oh ya..b4 i 4get...I"ve finally done wif the material list and getting started...haha! i sat in the workshop...for 4 hrs STRAIGHT! OMG! butt pain.. =X and and..mr leo scolded me for not giving my material list to the instructors early...but how can i gif it to them when ALL of them are all so busy? omg....den...yang manage to help me get 1 kind kind instructor to cut the acrylic for me!! omg...im so thankful ~>.<~ and u all noe wat? after tt really kind and nice instructor helped me wif the acrylic...the rest of the instructors were all loafing arnd the workshop....wtf man? am i not fated to haf them to help me wif my material? i mean...GEEE! LoLx...

next...comes the trip to orchard...we had tis really "pleasant" trip to orchard...while both ben and i were persuading Darrell to go orchard...LoLx...in the end..he went.... =) *yays* hahas...but den..he went quiet after he met us at Summerset MRT control station...hahas....dunno wat happened..met ONE of his ex maybe?? =X *woopz?*..den den...i tink i was the most talkative one there...as usual...xP~ haha! aiya..den there are bits and bits of things happened..nothing much..haha...den we went to ben's dentist..finally...Lolx...and...it was his turn! xP~ den i was very sian....i was sitting besdie Darrell...den...i hug my bag...and fall alslp....LoLx....and den..when ben came out..he said i was slping wif Darrell.... i was like... (=.=") *im gonna kill him* and yea....he din die after tt either...LoLx...IM JOKING BEN!! (<---in case hes reading tis xP~) den we just went home lo...haha! and ben bought 8 days in the tpy interchange...and said it can improve my english...hmmx...maybe ttz true bah...but im too poor to buy..wahahahaha...any sponsors? anyways....im goin liao lo!...cya all till next time i blog....i hope itz tis few days....haha..

one more thing....IM GOIN SENTOSA TOMORROW!!! YAY!!! =)

WOOT!

2005-06-09T18:10:00.000+08:00

ola ppl! im back in business....haha! hmmm...letz get it started ya?haha...today..i woke up early in the morning...(6.23am) wahahaha...ttz early..haha...and after i bathed...i went out...w/o taking breakfast....i was the 1st one at the red circle...1st time sia....cus i always the last de...haha... xP~ anyway....yu lin came second, kim came 3rd, jerome came 4th, feng ming came 5th and kelvin was last! muhahahaha! =) today...i went to play volleyball la..and i tink i spiked the most...most of them nice nice one...one of the best trip of my life behx! LoLx...and i pon DnT...*woopz* hahaha! cus itz kinda sian there....might as well...haha...but i nid to rush DnT liao leh! URGHH! grrz....den...we took a long trip to tampines...haha! =X den...basically..we started playing...everyting were fine...when it comes to game play...trouble came. we were playing....and there was tis gal...name Audrey...was acting like a bytch....fancy her telling me not to tok in game play when she herself talk and even got hit by the ball! LOL....ttz really hilarious..we were just teasing her abt us feng ming taking her no. and she became a bytch..she very provokative de la...not jk at all..to tink we actually joke wif her at 1st...den den..the gals onli regconize ppl by their shoes....and they named me..."orange shoe de"....den i just hack care them la...den...Audrey-the-bytch strikes again...she shouted at me...saying..."orange shoe de...dun talk while playing." den when she finished her sentence...she missed the ball tt was delivered to her....tt was REALLY funni...dam...i shouted back..."yayaya...u talk so much and missed the ball...wah kao!" and my team just started luffing....den tt bytch din say anyting.....den...sumting really fierce came abt...theres tis boi..came into her team..den tt Audrey-the-bytch scolded him and stuff like tt...dunno wat shit la..she dam fierce...haha...den we din say anyting....oh ya..did i say Coach Chua called her xiao la jiao?(chilli padi) eeewww...she being xiao la jiao? *pui!*

den...after much of her "reprimands" my team and i decide to "shoot" her wif all the ball tt we serve or spike...and STRIKE! we got bull-eyed almost every shot...meaning..there are innocent gals hurt by us...mainly by yu lin, feng ming, jerome and me....LoLx! den...becus i say out loud (on purpose) tt we are all gonna aim her....den she change place wif a gal...tt gal ish a graduated student....den kinda mature...and fierce bah...haha!...den...me and yu lin realised tt shes in front of me now....den..the ball din stop aiming her...the ball just went to her... =) dam...wat a bytch she was...den after a few matches of fun (torture for tt Audrey-the-bytch)...she went home! LOL! gg! *Audrey-the-bytch had left the building" but tt din stop ppl frm calling my "orange shoe de" and basically...we kept on playing..and..more innocent got hurt by my team...mainly...me again...lol! jk! actually..my team did most of the hurting...i wuldnt BEAR to hurt those gals...rite? LoLx... *innocent eyes @.@* *blink blink* den we went hm at 12+ ....we went for lunch...actually itz brunch..haha...did i say tt Coach Chua pang Seh us wif her dotter when we purposely miss the 1st bus waiting for her...wahahaha... =P anyway...we had a great time eating...and stuff...haha... =P and..things happened in the train...Jerome, as the headline of today's blog, had stomachache....and u all shuld noe wat happened in the train when a person ish having a stomachache...lol...

den...we went home liao lo...haha...i was SO slpy on the bus sia...i put my hand on my right eyes and started dozing off...haha..lucky got ppl stop at my stop...lol....or else i wuld've missed it.. =P and now..im bloggin! LoLx...haiz...i very slpy le...ttz all for today's blog bah..haha =P hmm...nitex.. ^.^

one more thing b4 i go...Audrey-the-bytch sux to the core...eat tis bytch! ..!..

WTF WTF!!!???

2005-06-03T15:45:00.000+08:00

WTF LAR!!! the "long words change to short ones" thingy ish back to my blag lar...dammit lar...y is tis happening?? NI NA B**...CH** CH** B**!!! URGHHH!!! sian liao la...i alrdy retyped once le...tink i dun wan to retype le lar! zzz...kinda long oso leh.. =P haiz...hope tis will never happen again..or else...vulgarities will be all over my blog...again...LIEW!!! URGHHH!!! zzZzZ...haiz..i go le la...although itz abit vulgar here..but itz how i felt..!! ~>.<~ eek!

Shocked? Adrenaline.

2005-06-03T15:40:00.000+08:00

weeeex! im back bloggy! r u rdy to take wateva it is for today? gg! aniwayz...here goes...letz start frm the morning..arnd 6.57am...i heard computer noise den i woke up...den..i saw my bro playing the anime..Naruto..WITH ME SLPING!! OMG!! HOW COULD HE!? haha...den i just sit up and grab my specs and watch it on my bed lo..haha..den i went back to slp...to catch a little while more of slp...den when i woke up again...i was like...OMG!!! i woke up at 9.40am...when i had SS lesson at 9.15am...OMG OMG!! stupid hp..sumtin cropped up wif the time in my hp.. ><...den i smsed ben on how did the lesson goes...but i tink he oso din go for the lesson too? haha! wOoT! xD~ den he asked me wanna go for movie anot..den say onli him and fel are going...den i tink tt sumone will feel left-out and Pang Seh-ed if i go..so i missed the movie thing lo...haha..sry ah ben!><>

wootz!

2005-06-02T21:30:00.000+08:00

olala! haha...today's topic of the day..."nothing" HAHA! xP~ actually i dun really haf anything to blog abt today..but anyways...i will do my best de..*gambate* haha! today arh..hmmmx...sad thing happened...we WERE suppose to go play volleyball at PCS de...den...now itz canceled liao...haiz....when will we get to play a game? and seriously...WHEN!? LoLx... =P and den...i dunno y...i dun really sound surprised when itz said tt the vb trip ish canceled....BECUS IM USED TO IT LIAO!!! LOL! =P but..itz not anyone's fault...we are all so busy at things...and schs dun just compromise for our own leisure....hahaz... xP~ anyway...ziwei ta jie they all ish goin sentosa on the 15th of june...any volleyball-mates wanna go play contact mua...LoLx.. haha...ehs...den..after the long "complain" to yu lin...me and ben went to lunch..at mac..near poi ching...old de! LOlx... =P den...followed by alf, mun and laxh...they came after we arrived at the mac..haha... wat a coincident? *bleah* haha...den ben wanna watch movie...but...alot ppl dunwan..so din make it to the movie either...LOlx.. =P hmmmz...

den sumting really amazing happened....i actually go do my DnT when i reached hm..oMg? LoLx...kinda surprise myself oso..haha...becus i dun usually does DnT at hm.. xP~ den..frm 3 to 7pm..i was doin DnT and listen to music..haha! kinda nice doin it under the melodious music...accompanied by my wild creativity on loads of transportation...haha! i drew a train!! WOOT! haha...i dun tink itz nice bah..but still....got the train shape bah...haha! =P hmmx...den i watch tv after 7..haha...rest rest.. xP~ or else later cock eye liao.. @.@ haha...anyway...after 7pm ish my slacking hour..den i slacked alot after tt..nothing much to tok abt..haha....*giggles* =) aiyo...today got LOST leh..haha..dunno got time to watch anot...or maybe i too busy wif the internet? LoLx... *bleahs*..i tink i go lo...haha! go make potions.. =) but dun tink i haf much potions to make either.. =P woopz!! im not supposed to saying anything abt wizardry...=.=" when i alrdy did..haha! im kinda lame today..dunno y?...maybe no volleyball when im suppose to haf? LOLx... =P

Tired. Freaked out. LoLx

2005-06-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

heyzzz...im here to blog..finally...after my chinese...LoLx...1st ting 1st..i hate frenster....LoLx....they haf so much problems to it..haix.. =P hmmmx...anyway...today we went to watch "Mad-Da-Gas-Ga" LoLx...kinda funny wor...nono...itz REALLY funni...but ppl sitting at both sides of us are luffing their heads off like nobody's business...LoLx... =P but still...itz fun! ^^...very tireing leh...to go walk arnd so much....haha...but for a good cause...haha...yilong bought a shirt...haha..after the "long" hour of walking and stuff....haha...luckily i nv wear jeans... xP~ so hot outside...haha...den..when we were having lunch...actually i was having "brunch"(<--breakfast-cum-lunch) hahaha! den..i was smsing my fren..close fren.. =) den..my TA JIE ( Jillian) see my busy wif the fone and not the food...she help me scoop the food up onto the spoon...HAHA! like my muthur when i small...BUT she nv feed me la! haha! den i use the spoon to feed myself...haha! xP~ den we went to take neo-print...haha...stupid poses... xP~ but still..itz fun... haha...and my ta jie kept using mich to ask us to do stuff...LoLx...but still..itz harmless... =) oh ya..wanna noe y i freaked out? haha...we saw tis dam blardy girlish guy at Cine...haha...tok like gal..sit like gal...acts like gal...and...walk like gal...wif a hand baG!!! OMG! haha! our jaws dropped as far as it could ever reach when we saw him..haha!

den now...im at home...haha...tired...and chatting wif one of my close frens...1 member of [D]ig [T]his oso...haha...chatting about tmr's vb games...haha....hope we can play...or else i really will sian half..sian till dunno wat will happen oso...haha! xP~ aiya...waiting ppl to sms me oso...haha....ppl are so busy at times... xP~ haha... lalalalalala....OH YA! i almost forgot abt "charmed" today....haha...luckily i tok to another fren on msn...haha...kinda like ta jie oso..haha....den watched le....the ending kinda lame (wah 1st time i tink itz lame) hahaha! but...PIPER ISH SO DAM POWERFUL WIF 8 HANDS! OMG! haha...demon dun stand a chance.... =P anyway..tink i go le la...not in the "real" mood to blog today anyway..haha...maybe 1 of my "mood-swings"? hahaha...JUST JOKING! =P

Grieve. Regrets

2005-05-31T13:12:00.000+08:00

heeelllloooo! let just move on to the bloggy....dun wait..xD~ hmmx...today was a early morning wake-up...haha...i had a really HEAVY breakfast again...dam full...haha.. xP~ den was our O' LeveL chinese...omG..dam hard siiaa! kao! i tink my diStinctiOn GoNe le la! Liew..i wan A for chinese leh...i NID it...><>

we went to quite sum places today behx..1st we went to LJS! omg...itz filled wif all my frens...and seriously...ALL!!! LOL!!...itz like...other sch frens oso there leh...today dunno wat happen...met so many frens..haha...anyways...today ish quite a "draining" day...haha...i collapse onto the sofa as soon as i reach home...and grabbed onto the packed slping bag and act as a bloister and slp....haha! den i actually shouted at my bruthur when i got irritated by his loud laughter inside the rm....haha...song bo... xP~ and now..i seriously hope tt i haf the discipline to study during the holidays...hahas....but..times like playing volleyball shuld be spared... =) hahas....i tink nothing to blog abt le la...except...CL IS A PAIN IN THE ASS! LoLx...i dunwanna reatke leh~ hmmx...anyway...im gone le lo... =) hope u all enjoy ur stay here... xP~ wooTz!

HoLy Cow!

2005-05-29T17:06:00.000+08:00

sian la! my blog y always got problems de!? DAMMIT LAR!!! kaoz...alwayz like.."eat my words" i type long long...den when i post itz...i came out to be onli a few lines...dam it la...i have had enuff of it...haha...tis is the last time im changing blog...*finger-crossed* hope i nid not change again..haha....

anyway..today was kinda sian oso...and i can sense the tense-ness in me..becus tmr ish the our official CL O' Level paper liao..and i really hope tt i can score distinction for tt...becus i NID it..haha...dam sian oso...haha...today i keep on using chinese....haha...using computer and watching tv are the onli time when im in contact wif english...haha..the rest is all chinese chinese and more chinese...haha... xP~ kinda fun oso la... =) but den..i realise i onli tok but din do..and i DO realise tt..I DIN TOUCH ANY CL STUFF TODAY!!! OMG!!! im dead liao...i tink i nid to go study liaoz....haha....i keep tis post short becus...i m too sian liao...if the "change-long-to-short blog thingy" happens again...im not goin to blog for today..haha... xP~ and..i read alot of blogs today...esp. 2 of my cliques....they were besties last time..but now dunno wat had happened..they became "enemies"..i DO hope tt they can patch up and be happy like they/ we used to be...haha.... (>< *pray*) xP~ aiya...i tink i haf nothing to say liao..later got the prob again...im gonna smash the com...haha.. xP~ ciao ppl...nid to study chinese lo... ^^

1 last day to prepare for our big day...tmr's chinese O'Level Paper...study hard ppl...and letz all hope tt theres no regret and we all scored wat we always wanted...distinctions...haha..good luck folks! and i guess alot ppl will blog abt tmr's paper....im no exception of cus...ciao ppl! (=.= V)